I AM MILA(:

2008-05-03T23:11:00.004+08:00

OMG , YAMAPI SMILED ! :D
cute ! Pi should really smile more na ~

HOHO , Mila Palamita is happy. :)

amelia deborah--> YOU ROCK!! says:
hey girl
amelia deborah--> YOU ROCK!! says:
u did great today
amelia deborah--> YOU ROCK!! says:
there's much improvement
amelia deborah--> YOU ROCK!! says:

待ちきれないよ Beautiful Days ! OG27 ; 08S01 <3 says:
Really ? ^^
待ちきれないよ Beautiful Days ! OG27 ; 08S01 <3 says: Thank you ! (:

amelia deborah--> YOU ROCK!! says:
it was a great improvement from last time

待ちきれないよ Beautiful Days ! OG27 ; 08S01 <3 says:
Haha , yayy !
待ちきれないよ Beautiful Days ! OG27 ; 08S01 <3 says:
I hope I can continue with it

YAYY :D
Mila Palamita will continue to work hard.
THERE IS BIO TEST NEXT WEEK !
and MATH TEST.

O and SUMMER TIME will be out officially next week. Hehhehheh.
I just realised it will be out on the day I have my bio test. -_-

Ma,
God please continue to take care of me and be my source of strength !
Yoroshiku onegaishimasu ! :)

2008-05-01T00:39:00.005+08:00

Hoho , my poor blog is absolutely neglected !
But there is simply no time to blog !! :(

Anyway , tomorrow I am going to have CG and after that ,
I will be eating Seoul Garden with OG27 ! :D
This is a good way of......
celebrating Koyama's birthday !
HAHA, YAYY !

誕生日おめでとう、小山！！:D
This picture of Keii-chan and the little boy is soooo cute ! :D

じゃ、おやすみなさい！
(Good night ! :D)

2008-04-19T23:45:00.002+08:00

ATTENTION PLEASE.
Mila moo has lost her phone.
So please beware of my number calling your phone.
It will be the horrible person prank calling you !

The person sucks !
I asked sandy to call my phone.
He picked up and has the guts to say : WRONG NUMBER .

Anyway .
I have a problem telling this to my mum . :(
Sigh.

IF you need to contact me ,
please email to milala.joyfulnoisemaker@gmail.com
or add me at milliefhee@hotmail.com.
Hahha.

2008-04-09T00:00:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry ! I can't help it !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YAMAPI !!
誕生日おめでとう、やまぴ !

2008-04-08T14:04:00.005+08:00

Ahh , Toma !
Due to a 2 day mc , I've allowed myself to check out on Toma's latest nikki entries, hehheh.
And I realise , I miss Toma so much !! HAHA.
It's nice reading Toma's nikki, as well as Pi's nikki, cause you find out how they are doing ! :)

No, I am not a stalker !
If I am then you reading this is a stalker too !
HAHA, kidding !
Ah, if only Massu has a nikki too !! :(

Anyway,
I haven't updated in a while , I am sorry !
The last week was crazy. Haha.
It was worse than the previous week.

Tomorrow is Pi's birthday ! :D
Hehheh.
Not that I can do anything .. haha !
I will be going back to school tomorrow. :)
I hope tomorrow will be a genki day !
It has to be , cause it's Pi's birthday !

I shall go and buy lunch now.
And then I will eat , and then take medicine.
And then I will do math . :(
I hate math.

2008-03-29T00:54:00.005+08:00

Ma , I just cannot take it but to blog this !
There are too many things to be excited about !! :D

1. New TegoMass song アイアイ傘 (Ai ai gasa) is confirmed ! It will be the ending song of the anime ﾈｵｱﾝｼﾞｪﾘｰｸ Abyss (Neo Angelique Abyss) ! And if a new song is confirmed , I'm sure a single should come along right ? ;D Ahh , single onegaishimasu ! HAHA.

2. New NEWS single called Summer Time is confirmed to release on the 8th of May !! :D
It will be the new CM song for RUSS-K/Crymson ! Yayy ~ !!

3. Hanazakari no Kimitachi e SP ! :D Yayy , Nakatsu is back !

4. TomaPi interview in the next(?) issue of Japanese Seventeen ! <3

5. Japanese Lessons start on this SUNDAY ! :D

Aren't all these so exciting ?
While things to be excited about are piling up , so is hw and assignments and tests, haha !
But I am enjoying school na ~ ! :)
I have great tomodachis !

1st April - GP Class Debates
3rd April - GP Presentation on Families
4th April - GP Poster dateline + Econs Class Test
9th April (PI'S BIRTHDAY !! ) - Econs Test !
Someday in weeeek 4 - Math Test
20th April - Dateline for submission of YMCA Citibank -Youth For Causes proposal
22nd April - Chinese Test

And just this weekend , I have to complete :
Bio enzymes lecture worksheet
Bio Practical Table
Math Exercise 3B
2 Chinese Worksheets
Obtain 4 articles that is relevant to tasks for PW
Read and study handouts given for GP and write the gists of the articles in GP notebook
Study bio bio bio !!

Plus , I am on duty for both services tomorrow and Jap classes start on Sunday , so I wonder how can I find the time to finish all this ah ? Hahaha ~

Ma , Mila Palamita will try her very best and work hard !

2008-03-27T00:11:00.004+08:00

Omg , Massu ! HAHA. ;D

Hoho , my blog's starting to die ! :(
Anyway , College life is getting tougher day by day !
But although it's getting tougher,
it's getting funner too . ;)

I think my class is great ! :D
I have made some good tomodachis in the past weeeeks or so with S01 !
But never will I pang-seh OG27. :)

Anyway, I have an influx of hw suddenly .
Thank God, I finished half of them !
But then I still haven't start memorising bio !!
And I have not been spending enough time with God. :(

2008-03-16T00:00:00.007+08:00

" Ne , I love asparagus ! Do you ? "

For coincidences are God's way of remaining anonymous , as said by Albert Einstein .
So I am telling you , this is fate . ;D
HAHAHAHAHA ~

And so one fine day , I ate barbequed asparagus with pork from Tori Q and I fell in love with it . Now , I am absolutely addicted to asparagus especially with grilled meat . The fresh crispy taste of asparagus just compliments the meat so much ! :D

And from a recent NEWS interview ,
MASSU said that ,
he loves eating (this is something we all know) and that asparagus is delicious and one his favourite food cause one day he ate it raw and the charm of asparagus increased !

HAHA , this is fate !
Obviously , I am applying the truth a little bit wrongly .
This is so unbiblical !!

But I can't help it , I find it VERY amusing . HAHA .
Ne , I love asparagus ! HAHA !

Meanwhile , I feel very sad for Pi cause he isn't able to graduate from University this Spring cause he is missing of 4 credits ! :(
Demo , you really can't blame him cause it really is not easy to cope Uni with all of his work . Other than NEWS works , he still has solo works such as Kurosagi !
On a lighter note , it is said that he should be able to graduate this September . :)
Ganbaruyo , Yamashita-kun !!

Ma , I'm sure he can make it in September cause Pi is very smart !

YAMAPI power , enter ~ !!

2008-03-13T01:14:00.006+08:00

On monday , I went to watch L with Rei-san ! :D
It was a good movie , you should go watch it !
I have to say , L is very adorable !!
I especially like the way he types and the way he puts donuts and other sweet treats on a skewer , super adorable !
And I think Matsuyama Kenichi portrayed him very well . :)
I like Matsuyama Kenichi as L , he makes a good L .
HAHA.

And for lunch that day , we ate Curry Omu rice . :)
And we were reminded of Ing-chan cause the last time we ate together was at Omu rice with Ing-chan .
Then we were reliving how the Beard Papa's personnel was asking the Takopachi guy how many legs the octopus had in the octopus illustration on the Takopachi board . -_-
HAHA , that was super retarded .

Anyway , did I mention that school has made me a pig ?
I don't know why but I'm eating more and more .
Haha !
Take monday for instance , even after Curry Omu rice , I was not full and I wanted to eat more .
During the movie , I just kept muching on my chocolates that I brought from home .
And at the end of the movie , I realised I finished the whole box and Rei-san didn't even have any ! Plus, there was popcorn .
Yes , I ate some of the popcorn too .
Ah , dame ~ HAHA

Oh well .
I am very happy today cause I went to eat at Ichiban Boshi with Rachel and Kim (juniors) before Polka IV . :D
It was a good meal and a good concert .
I was very excited when JE-chan and the others were performing , HAHA .
In my opinion , Merry Widow by the alumni and the last 2 songs by SMSB were the best of the performances today. :D

But watching them play so skilfully makes me feel a bit inferior na ~
Hahaha , cause I still haven't find my talent and I am totally not musically talented .
Ah well , something God buried in me is still not discovered yet ! Haha !

Ma , I was really happy that JE-chan liked her gift. :D
Today's a good day !
And tomorrow will be one too !

2008-03-10T00:27:00.007+08:00

Awwww , Massu ! <3

I was going to hit the sack after I read a chapter of the Word , but today's scriptures just reminded me of something I was supposed to share . And I decided to blog it down before it slipped my mind.

"But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. "
James 1:6

Amen ! :D
When we ask God for a certain something , it matters a great deal that you really believe in your heart that you will get it . It does not make sense that you request something from God and yet you don't believe you will get it .

Well yes , it's not easy and sometimes the circumstances just seem impossible .
But that's when faith comes in isn't it ?
You just have to turn away from the situation and choose to BELIEVE it in your kokoro .
That's the least that you can do to show God that you really want it .

Believing really makes a whole lot of difference , trust me !
I've a testimony to share !

When I just got into PJ , I didn't get the subject combi that I wanted .
They didn't even have the combi that I want on their website , but before JAE , God just gave me a very strong feeling that PJ is the school He wanted me to be in .
And I have to get into bio cause if not my dreams will be totally shattered .
But God gave me this dream in the first place and I'm sure He had it all planned out.
When I went to get the subject combination appeal form , the irritating teacher was saying the chances of me getting the combination I am appealing in is very low .
But who cares , I appealed and I BELIEVED that God will surely give it to me .
And the results came .
It was successful , I got the combination that I wanted ! :)

Ma , that's why I say ,

As Tegoshi puts it , BELIEVE ~
HAHA, although that video of Tegoshi saying that was really retarded and funny .

Massu was really cute in that video though , at the later part he was doing sit-ups while eating honey ! HAHA.
OH and how can I forget Pi's greeting in the form of a kiss ? LOL.
Watch it here . ;)

Ah well , I'm sleeping now.
Sumi ~

2008-03-09T13:54:00.003+08:00

Taiyo no Namida ~

And so after I had my mid-morning bath , I happily stepped out of the house to get sushi for brunch , not thinking that it was going to rain at all . Haha , and then after making my purchases (which does not include the ice cream I wanted to eat so much), as I walked out of Cold Storage , I realised , it was raining . :(

The first thing which struck me was , "Shucks , I shouldn't have listened to Taiyo no Namida . " HAHA. Ah well , I wasn't bitter though , I was thinking , perhaps God wanted me to do some self-reflections as I waited for the rain to stop (I didn't want to walk in the rain cause I had already bathed) .

And so I did , and then I told God , if the rain doesn't stop by the end of this song (I was listening to my iPod as I do my self-reflections) , I shall go eat McFlurry . And it didn't ! So God gave me the chance to eat ice cream , HAHA .

And after I ate McFlurry , I waited a while more while listening to worship songs till it seems that the rain had stopped . I went out of KAP and yes , the coast is clear ! There was no more rain !

Until ,
I reach the traffic light .
It started to pour , even heavier that before !!
Before I know it , I started laughing in the rain , HAHA .

And by the time I reach home which is just 5 mins later , I was 60% wet .
So I had to bathe again , but somehow , I was happy . :)
HAHA , I also don't know the point of me sharing this , I just thought it was interesting .

I think God is telling me to catch up more with him since after school started , my QT got shorter and shorter . And yet , God is telling me that in such a yasashi way ! Remember , He even allowed me to have ice cream ! ;D

Shucks, God is so cute . HAHA .
Okay , I am going to study Bio now . :)

2008-03-08T20:44:00.010+08:00

Tegomass PLAY <3

Yosh !! :D
Actually I've lots of things to blog about ! But now that I'm in front of the lappy, I can't remember all that I want to blog and it feels as though there isn't anything to blog about. -_-

Ma ~ , let me just share about the interesting random happenings in my life ! :)

On the 29th of February , other than cross-country , OG27 had an outing !! We went to eat at the hawker centre near school and then we went to play at the nearby playground like kids with deprived childhood ! Hahaha, but I really had lots and lots of funn and I'm sure the others too . :)

And and and, there was this super cute little boy who was staring at us play , and then later someone (I forgot who , heh) asked him to join us in our games and he was so happy ! You should see his happy laughing face as he was playing with us ! SUPER CUTE ! :D

We even took an OG photo with him ! :D
Haha, a bit small ah ... I shall pass my thumbdrive to Clara and ask her to put the photos in . :)
I can't wait for OG outing on friday !
And I don't care , OG27 must maintain good friendship even after being separated into our classes !

Ahhh , 2 days into my class and I already miss OG27 !! :(
But I'm not saying my class is not nice , in fact I think we had a good start during CT yesterday !
My class people are nice (and multi-talented, LOL) but I just haven't find my place there yet .
Oh and my class is cool , S01 ! HAHA, first class. ;)

Yesterday , I went to watch Koizora with the Saints ! :D
Haha , I was the only Pioneer there , but I was very happy to see them , especially JE-chan and Rei-san ! :D And we definitely had funn , no ?
Oh the Saints present yesterday were JE-chan , Rei-san , Lois , Grace , Teng and Charlene !
Haha , I wonder when can I see all of them again ? :(
I hope we can have more gathering/outings like these again !

Ma, the movie was very nice and very touching ! But also very sad .
Just that the beginning was a bit ?! cause they bring things a bit too fast , lol .
Demo , I really admire the love that developed between them . :)
It is not the typical non-lasting love that we see between two young people these days based on feelings . I shall not reveal anything , you go watch it for yourself . ;)

Awww , they are so cute !
And I think Aragaki Yui is very pretty ! I wouldn't mind her as Tegoshi's girlfriend . HAHA, I sounded as though ... never mind .

And I thought I was bad cause I cried , but Rei-san was worse than me ! HAHA.
After the movie , we went to take neoprints to relive our seishun , lol .

Ah, holidays !
Let's see how's the weeeek going to be so far ;
Monday - Movie with Rei-san ? , WAM night (0n duty)
Tuesday - STUDY
Wednesday - Metamorphosis (on duty) , Polka Concert (JE-chan performing ! :D)
Thursday - Bowling with CG !
Friday - OG outing !

I need to assign time to mug EVERYDAY !
I've lots of things to catch up for bio .
An excellent student-to-be has to do what an excellent student-to-be has to do .
And that is to mug everyday, lol .

JE-chan , we must eat MOW before school starts again !
Okay , I shall go off to watch My Boss My Hero now . ;)
Tomorrow shall be a study day !

2008-03-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

Shouting out ;
Tanjoubi Omedetou, Ing-chan ! :D
We miss you !
Okay, I miss you but I'm sure everyone misses you as well !
Mila Palamita will be keeping you in prayers. :)

Ahh, Pi had just completed his university graduation examinations this week !
Fans of Pi, please help to pray that he'll be able to do well and graduate !
Haha, he requested that on his nikki , by the way .
But I'm sure as fans of Pi, we all want him to do well ne ?

And I'm so sorry JE-chan for not updating my blog !
Actually I have relatively a lot to blog about, but then, I am very tired, heh.
Let's eat MOW on the day we watch Sky of Love (is this the title ? LOL . ) !! :D

I will be back soon !
But for now, oyasumi ! :D

2008-02-23T01:21:00.004+08:00

NEWS Member Ai <3

YAYY, I LOVE PJ OG27 <3
I really want to thank God for putting me in PJ and in this OG !
Haha, I never knew I could have so much crazy funn with this group of people.
The last time which I had such funn was at X29 and that was December !
Haha !

Orientation was so funn ! :D

And OG27, if you ever read this,
Although not everyone ever seem to be present cause someone always goes missing (LOL, no offense) still, thank you OG27 for making my start in PJ a very good one ! :)
I thought I was going to be some complete loner when I first came on Wednesday.
But no, that's not going to be the case !
Because we made friends, bonded and had funn together !
And I was very touched when you all waited for me to finish my food before campfire although I didn't say anything. Haha !
You all rock, no wait.
We Rock ! :D

I finally understand what Sakurakouji Jun (Tegoshi) really meant in My Boss My Hero.
Indeed, we are all young people who are uncertain about our future. Some of us may already be sure about what you want to do in the future, but it's never certain cause there are still many things to go through before we finally reach where we want to be isn't it ? And to go through that, we need each other's support. That's why we are put together in school, in college to help us go through all these things together . To support, help, learn and have funn with each other. Oh, and even learn from each other. :)

Ahhh, I will miss OG27 ! :(

2008-02-20T22:33:00.003+08:00

Like how Tegoshi puts in, BELIEVE ~ ! ;D
(I'll elaborate more next time , orientation had me tired out !)

2008-02-19T07:55:00.003+08:00

Ohayou-gozaimasu ! :D
What a weird way of waking up today.
I was having a weird (forgotten) dream and it was transiting into another dream when I was woken up by Massu's "moudoshiyou monaimoyou..." (my sms ringtone) and suddenly I was wide awake.

OMG, it's here, the results !
It went,

MOE: Congrats MILA PALAMITA, you are posted to PIONEER JC, SCIENCE (35S) under 2008 JAE. Pls report to JC/MI on 20 Feb 08 at 7.30am .

HAHA !
Anyway, to everyone : I hope you are feeling alright wherever they are posted to . Just remember that wherever you are posted to is where God wants you to be and always remember , He knows better where you'll prosper and become the person He meant you to become. :)

To you : You really had a lot of courage for doing what you did ! I'll pray for you, and you're going to be alright, okay ? Ganbaru yo ! :)

2008-02-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

Iya ~ it's a bit late but still ,
Happy Valentine's Day minna-san !! :D

2008-02-13T02:24:00.001+08:00

Hahaha, God has me amazed during QT today.
He's got me laughing like Massu up there !
Indeed, I am serving not just a great God, but a very cute God ! LOL.

Halfway through telling God my feelings and thanking Him for the day,
I had the urge to sing Miso Soup english, HAHA.
I'm sure you'd think it's very random, I mean, it's not even a Christian song !
You'd even think I'm fangirling too much, won't you ? Haha ~
But then , I just started singing (yes, i did !) and I realise,
the lyrics is very relevant to what I am trying to convey to God !

Haha, I am so retarded, I don't even know what I have been wanting to convey to God !
To the extent that He has to urge me to sing Miso Soup to realise what I've been wanting to convey to Him.
God is soooo cute. <3

Of course, I wouldn't say the whole song is relevant.
But parts of the song are !

Miso soup, I feel Your loving
Tender care it's always nice and hot
I'm always a kid
I'll never be matured enough
Never asked for anything
You gave me all the love You had
All the love You gave me, ~~mum~~ God
Makes me want to see You again

Isn't it right ?
We will never be mature enough, I will never be mature enough.
Although I am thankful for all the things that God has given me,
I don't deny that I am always wanting more, and I am always asking God for more.
And God never asks for anything back, does He ?
He just blesses us, His children.
He just gives us more and more of His love, everyday.
And it always leaves us wanting to see even more of His love.

Miso soup, I still remember
It's in my heart, when things are going tough
So I'd never get lost
You will always hold my hand
Never ask for anything
You were always there for me
Makes me come back to Your ~~smile~~ love

Doesn't it speak for itself ?
God is always guiding us out of tough times by holding our hands. :)

2008-02-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

"Ehhh ?"

Hahaha, I started with that icon because that was how I reacted when I saw rei-san's tag.
For the first time in how many thousand years, I have decided to reply my tags.
BUT, only recent tags, hehheh.

inggrid: YES I KNOW ! Super cute please ! :D But look at Massu ! Even cuter , OMG. HAHA. Massu's smile/laugh is such rabu <3

nobuta: Hurray ! :D We are going to Liang Court and buy food then da-bao to eat by the river ! And we must take PHOTOS that day !! :D We'll discuss about thursday tomorrow yea ? See you tomorrow, nobuta ! KON !

rei: HAHA, and where will we elope to huhhh ? And it's not elope anymore since you are bringing so many people along, HAHA. Ehhh ? Why Kame ? Kame is handsome but put MASSU in the list, please. LOL. Ah, I know why you chose Kame already ! Actually deep in your heart you like Kame right ? Hahahahaa ~ Gosh, all this is so unbiblical ! LOL.

jinger: HAII ! Then we can wear it to service together. ;D Worst come to the worse, we just write the words ourselves onto plain green tshirts, lol. Hahaha, okay ! So funn ! And I still think Kame looks cuter with glasses. ;) HAHA, whichever community you joined, news-jpop and ikuta_toma is a must-join ! :D See you on thursday, and friday ! YAYY ~ !

(oh and JE-chan, in the end the plans to go eat with my juniors failed. HAHA. So i might call you out tomorrow, LOL !! But then i might just stay at home and finish up Kurosagi, then we can start on Hachikuro together ! :D )

Okay, done. :D
When I said recent, I really meant recent ! Haha ~
Ahh, even when he is not at the limelight but at the back of the picture, Massu is still as attention grabbing because of his great kawaii smile. ;D

2008-02-11T21:57:00.000+08:00

I have to say, I really love this picture of Shige, Pi and Massu because they are laughing so heartily ! <3
Can't you feel the genuine joy overflowing from their awesomely kawaii expressions on their faces ? HAHA !

Actually, I love this photoshoot of NEWS very much. But it's just that it's a scan and the other half of NEWS, (who are also smiling very heartily) are on another page. I will post Tesshi, Ryo and Koyama at the end of this post. ;D

Anyway, I have a reason why I post this picture up . Actually, if you realised, I have a reason why I post a picture/icon before every post. Okay, fine sometimes it's really just to show you how cute JE boys are, but sometimes, I post a picture or an icon which shows how I am feeling. :)

But then JE boys are not all pretty faces . They are talented but that's not all. What I really love about them is that: THEY HAVE GREAT CHARACTERS ! :D

Well, yes, we all have to admit that there are certain scandals in NEWS with Uchi and Kusano being caught for underage drinking and all, but it's not fair to stereotype all of NEWS or worse, JE just because one or two of them have been disobedient. Seriously, as I find out more about Toma and NEWS, I really think that we have so many things to learn from them ! :D And I will share about the things I've learnt from JE boys soon ! :D

Haha, and yes, JE-chan and I have been looking for the "I have great character" t-shirt that Toma and Pi both wore in their dramas. (花君 and ProDai respectively). I am thinking of getting it ourself. But it's going to be rather expensive, unless, we can set up a "I have great character" t-shirt spree online. Unfortunately, I am an online shopping/selling idiot. HAHA.

Ahhh, I have totally digressed !! The reason why I decided to blog today is just to tell the world just how happy I am today ! HAHA ! And that is why I started the post with such a genuinely joyful picture of Shige, Pi and Massu, because that is exactly how I felt being with Melly and JE-chan today. :)

I don't know how to describe how I feel, and I suppose I don't need any words. I just enjoy their company very much , it's as simple as that. :)

The only one sad thing today was that PW was not around. :(
Ahhh, PW, are you free on Friday ?
Join our curry-by-the-river-followed-by-tennis friday !!

I really want to thank God for putting Melly, JE-chan and PW into my life. :) I want to thank God for bringing me so much joy through them ! We are all very different people with different personalities. But God placed us all in St.Marg's and then brought us all together to enjoy each other's company. I really love each and every single one of them ! :D

Haha, shucks, I think I am getting very mushy lately...Demo...
Yappari yokkata, yo ! :D
(I am really very happy !)

Tesshi, Ryo and Kei-chan ! Awww, look at their smiles !

2008-02-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

Ah, and so I knew that Massu is hot with glasses. But i didn't know that Toma with glasses would be really hot ! LOL !
Yes, I know. I was spazzing too, so don't worry, you are normal !
HAHA, I am blogging as though the whole world fangirls along with me, heh.

Anyways, my plan to cook Japanese curry and then bringing it to the hotel for my okaa-san failed because she had to come on a saturday. And to make it worse, a saturday which I'd be on duty for both services. HAHA. So I'll have to postpone my Curry surprise for her. :\

To when ? I also don't know . :(
Haha ~

The last weeeek has been a relatively good one. And God definitely taught me to have a thankful heart. As Shuzhen said in service, we really want to step into this (lunar) new year with a thankful heart for what we already have. And for me, it's really in terms of my family.

Well, my family is not exactly a complete one and I wouldn't say that I enjoy their company all the time. In fact, most of the time when I am with my family, I would be very quiet. I'd prefer being on my own with my mum & brother, or with my dad. But when my whole family is present, somehow I don't enjoy it. Demo, God really taught me how to be thankful for this not-so-complete family. :)

God taught me to be thankful that I didn't have to go through the Lunar new year on my own but with my family. God taught me to be thankful for their existence and their presence. :) And although that didn't make me more chatty, I know within my heart that I am happy and thankful that they are there. I've learned to be glad I am actually part of this family and not any other family which can be even worse. :)

Haha, the news of moving into JC district was a tad too fast , but I am glad that I am thankful for that too. Not that I want to leave Central right away, but I am glad that I am taking this piece of information and this transition with a positive attitude. :D

Of course, I am a little scared of what is to come in the near future. Whether I will adapt well, whether Shuji (JE-chan) and Akira (me) will end up in the same school...Haha, but whatever happens, there is only one answer - CLING ON TO GOD ! ;D

Haha, and the upcoming weeeek is rather busy ! This is the first time Mila Palamita has monday to friday booked before the weeeek starts ! Haha ~ !

Anyway, I still cant get over the metroness of Massu ~ <3
Nail polish, OMG ! Ikemen, yes ? ;D

2008-01-30T02:26:00.000+08:00

"Ne ! I've got blessings ~ !"

Ahhh, i just finished QT and realised I am really very blessed today ! (:
Despite the many times i thought I was going to faint, HAHA.
Ah yes, I forgot to say that I felt very tired today and I keep feeling as though I was going to faint.

Anyway, thanks to my God,

1. I spent a good time with Melly at dinner. Although we weren't very chatty, I genuinely enjoyed the time spent together. :)

2. Nobuta (PW's) love note, haha. It made me feel very happy !

3. I found one (and it was the one and only) copy of KISS ~ Kaerimichi no Love Song ~ single which I have been hunting for since 2 weeks ago. Uwaaa, when I first saw it, I nearly jumped, out of joy and surprise.

Ahhh, the songs are all very cute !
But KISS ~ is still the best song <3
Oh, and i bought it with my savings . :D

4. Having CG for the first time with the new CC1 and enjoying it despite all that tiredness. :)

I am blessed, ne ? ;D

2008-01-30T00:58:00.000+08:00

Sekai e todoke massugu na omoi
Kakaru niji no kanata
Hatenaki sora kono hane nara
We can fly ! Wo wo wo ~

-Rainbow, NEWS

Translated to :
Sending these honest thoughts out to the world
Beyond the hanging rainbow
Into the endless sky if I have these wings
We can fly ! Wo wo wo ~

Ahh, I dream and I really want to be a doctor !!
Not for money, not for prestige, but for people.
Helping people.
Helping people get better, feel better.
Especially innocent little kids.
I want to help to take their pain away.
I want to see them smile.

I wish I could be free from the constant worry and pressure of not getting into Medicine.
I wish I could soar up high towards the rainbow and beyond the rainbow.
I wish I am up there, at the top.
Not for fame, but so that I know I can achieve what God inspired me to do.
I wish I am smarter.

Demo, I will not ever give up !
I know full well though, that fulfilling this dream with my own two hands is impossible.
So God, I am saying that I can only fulfill this dream with You.
God, please.
Don't let me give up this dream that You gave me.
Help me to bridge that gap between Medicine and my O' level results.
I can't fulfill this alone. I need Your help.

P.S. This is not meant to be an emo post, haha !
Just some honest thoughts. ;D
And Pi is cute, no ? HEH ~

2008-01-28T00:59:00.000+08:00

In demand: God & His love ;)

You called my name
Reached out Your hand
Restored my life, and I was redeemed
The moment You entered my life

Amazing grace, Christ gave that day
My life was changed
Went from my shoulders
Fell the weight of my sins

So it's with everything I am
I reach out for Your hand
The hope that changed a second chance I've gained
On you I throw my life
Casting all my fears aside
How could greater love than this ever possibly exist ?

Consume my thoughts
As I rest in You
I'm now in love, with a Saviour
Bearing the marks of His love

So I wait upon You now
With my hands released to You
Where a little faith's enough
To see mountains lifted move
Yeah, I wait upon You now
Dedicated to Your will
To this love that will remain
A love that never fails

And God is supplying. ;D
Plus, His supply never ends, never fails.

Hahah, economics is boring but when God's in the picture, it's the most interesting thing ever.
But I have a reason for putting that little bit of economics up there.

God has really shown to be a BIG demand in my life.
Whenever I don't feel that close connection to God, my emotions come tumbling down.
That is a good thing isn't it ?

But that is bad too, cause if my emotions come tumbling down, it shows that I am not temperate.
Ahh, Nobuta & Shuji !
Akira will join you in learning to be more temperate !

However, God always always shows Himself and His love faithful.
Always, His love never fails. :)

2008-01-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

Awww, look at Yuta Takemoto's joyful expression !
As time were spent with CG members, I feel that "something missing" feeling in my heart evaporating into nothingness. And what replaced that "something missing" feeling was JOY, simple genuine JOY. :)

As I do QT these few days and thank Daddy for the day, my heart is always overflowing with JOY. Not only because I had spend time with the people who brought me genuine joy, but also because I felt connected to God, more connected to God than last week. :)

I suppose that's weird isn't it ? But then, I've learnt something not-so-good about myself. And that is when I serve God very hard, I tend to get lost in the task. I get task-oriented and I forget to re-new myself with God and I get tired and stressed. In the end, I feel miserable because I don't feel that connection with God.

Ahhh, yappari, I have to get over this not-so-good thing !

But then ! You know on some days you just feel as if God is very far away ? You don't feel connected to God ? Well, if you really open your eyes and think of all the events that happened in the day, you will realise that God's footprints were everywhere you went. Whatever situations you had went through in a single day, it was all allowed and planned by God for a reason. And God was there beside you in each and every single one of them. And you realise that God is indeed closer than you think and that you are more blessed than you think you are ! :)

Watched Cloverfield with JE-chan and Melly just now, it was a weird show. HAHA. Then we went to PW's house and had a good time together. Ahhh, no wonder my heart is filled with happiness. :) Care group is love <3

We were talking about University, hahaha.
And guess what ?
To get into Medicine you DON'T need H2 math !!
When i first find out that, it was a huge huge huge burden off my shoulders.

I am still going to aim for Medicine, no matter how tough it will be ! :)
I can't wait to start school in JC and be a brand new student who will pursue excellence in everything so as to glorify God and go towards my ambition !! YOSH !

Yayy, service tomorrow ! :)

2008-01-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

YOSH ~ !! :D
So today was the BIG day.
And it was, haha, it was a scary experience.
I cried.

BUT not because I did badly for O' levels.
Yes, I did not meet my target of 10 points.
I did not get 5 distinctions.
Demo, it's a GREAT BIG improvement from prelims, and I am very happy and thankful for that.
Arigatou gozaimashita, God !! :D

By the way, I cried because of the overwhelming emotions. And the great BIG improvement I made, I improved by more than half !
That is a good improvement, no ?
And I have decided, PJC it is then. :)

But PJC, please be kind to Mila Palamita and allow her to take H2 Biology other than H2 Chemistry despite taking H1 Math ! Everybody, please pray for Mila Palamita that PJC will allow her to take H2 Biology !!

Ahh, and it was a good feeling seeing everyone again. <3

2008-01-22T01:57:00.001+08:00

Yamapi once said that Toma's importance in his life does not need to be stated. Because its just confirm plus chop that Toma is important to Pi. <33

And I suppose in that same way, my CG member's importance in my life does not need to be stated. Because they are so important in my life that sometimes I forget of their significance, I forget just how important they are to the extent that I would feel something is missing even as I serve God. And that affects my emotions. Call me sentimental, I suppose I am. But i really enjoy the company of these people. We used to see each other everyday, I miss them.

I remember calling out "Miaowi" to Melly in the corridor and she replies with a "Lala...!"
I remember smiling to JE-chan who stands at the line beside me in morning assembly.
I remember sheepishly walking into 4/6 looking for PW, feeling sheepish cause I, a person from the worse pure class walking into the best class, haha.
I remember us meeting at 6.45 am at the study area to evax and someone always ends up late, haha.
I remember running from different classrooms to different classrooms to find each other so as to start CG.
I remember how happy I was to see everyone on saturdays and last last tuesday.

Gosh God, am i being very silly ?
But tomodachi made in Your name are the ones which lasts for eternity.

2008-01-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

12 random things which i would like to blog about !

1. Mila Palamita really misses care group very much. :( Melly, you remember at that time just after prelims along with PW when I said that I have not been very happy lately and I realise it's because I have not been seeing my CG mates ? That's exactly how I am feeling now. I miss last last tuesday when we last had a everyone-was-present-except-the-little-ones CG. I miss hanging out with everyone in CG and it have been affecting my emotions, haha. Am I very silly ?

2. Guess what ?
Massu's ambition in Gachibaka is to go Africa !! <33 So cute , so cute, AHAHA ~ ! Imagine if one day i go to Africa and I see Massu there, HAHA. Shucks, this is totally unbiblical thinking... dame dame ~

3. Mila Palamita is not a rich kid like most Indonesians who come to Singapore to study. In fact, I had owed the school a few months worth of school fees and I had only paid it today, HAHA. And so, after paying the school $580, Mila Palamita is very broke and can only spend money very sparingly.

4. Mila Palamita is very happy cause she finally secured her place in Bunka language school and class will commence on the 30th March (a bit late i know, but then i wasn't able to start any earlier since the earlier classes are all full) . Mila CAN'T wait !! :D

5. O'level results will be out on Thursday and Mila is both excited and scared to get her results. Demo, I trust fully in God that He will have the best results for me. :) And, i can't wait to see CG mates + class mates on Thursday !

6. Mila will continue to aim to get into Medicine in University even though chances are a little low. But not trying will equals to 0% chance of getting in to Medicine and that's just stupid. It's too stupid to give up my ambition just because i didn't take Amath. And besides, it's too early to give up. ;) Plus plus, if it's really God's plan for me, He will have it all worked out. :D

7. Point number 6 have confirmed the fact that Mila will still aim to be a doctor. And that means Mila will try her very best to take both H2 Chemistry and H2 Biology even if she is going to take H1 Mathematics , if going to JC and I believe I will go to a JC.

8. Mila wants to watch Hachimitsu to Kuroba but is an idiot at downloading. And I have finally started watching Kurosagi and I think that Yamapi is HOT there. Next up : Proposal Daisakusen !

9. Mila had failed in downloading Shoon & Massu's AiQ Gekiba. :(

10. Mila is secure of God's authority and place in her life (NUMBER ONE !) and knows that God knows that she puts Him first. (HAHA, did you catch me there ?)

11. Mila had learnt that God is already helping her in wisdom despite the fact that it's still early in the year. She has realised amidst all her insecurities that : The depth of God's love for you is not determined by the depth of service you give. And many many things have happened to prove that right. :D

12. MILA LOVES GOD. :D

2008-01-18T01:34:00.000+08:00

My face had changed the way Pi's face had changed in that first 3 seconds of the video (PI IS SO VERY CUTE !! HAHA ! ) when i realised that Shoon & Massu's AiQ Gekiba is available for download but then because the free service is at full capacity, i can't download it.

Ahhhhh, nandeska ?
Demo, i will not ever give up !
I want Shoon & Massu cuteness !

I love the way Massu goes "Dahh-rringg ~"AHAHA, SO CUTE !

2008-01-16T19:38:00.000+08:00

Yosh ~ ! :D
Hahaha, rather eventful days have passed. Days spent doing God's work and days spent which I really felt taken care of by a very great God. :D

Take yesterday for example, he really helped a lot and at the end of the day, because of God's grace, I've got 20 of them ! All by survey ! :D

Anyway, during quiet time a few days ago, I had a very funny analogy.
It started when i was thinking of the song, "It is Your love", that one line which says,
"It is your love in my life that satisfies..."
I had an analogy, that of chocolate chip cookies.

And that is , my life is like a chocolate chip cookie.
And God is the chocolate chips.
Like how the chocolate chips make a cookie a chocolate chip cookie, having God in my life is what makes my life satisfies, is what makes my life, my life.
Hahaha, you get what i mean ? ;D

It's God that is most important in my life. Just like how chocolate chips are the most important ingredient in a chocolate chip cookie. What type of cookie are you ?
Are you a chocolate chip cookie like me with God as the chocolate chips ? ;D

Anyway, poor Toma have to film in the cold cold cold winter of Japan .
And not forgetting the fact that Yuta Takemoto is perpetually in shorts, even in the winter. :(
By the way, Yuta Takemoto is really very cute... :P

Hachikuro ~ when can i start watching you ?
I want to see Yuta Takemoto on the television and not just picture on magazines ! I miss watching Toma !
Ahhh, why am I such an idiot in downloading stuffs ? :(

Here's the CM, it looks very sad !
But Toma is still as charmingly cute as ever... especially at the end !

Oh and i have been blown away by the cuteness of Massu ~ AHAHA !
But Tegoshi is so cute as well...and Pi !
Check Pi out here ~ OMG
AHHHHHH, one must never fangirl too much...

Anyway my current must-watch is Shoon & Massu's AiQ Gekiba, it's very very cute and funny. I will post the videos here soon. ;D

2008-01-15T18:24:00.000+08:00

Tanjoubi Omedetou, okaa-san ! :D
Today's my mum's birthday and i sent her an sms which said that i will study hard and get into a Uni and make her proud ! And i will !!

Oh and i promised to cook her my favourite Japanese curry and she was very happy but asked me when can i do that. I have to say, i don't know the answer to that question myself, HAHA !
But, if it is possible the next time she comes which is Chinese New Year.

Ahh, yes ! I shall cook at home and bring it to the hotel for her and surprise her !! :D
And no lor, i am not going to buy the ready-made curry sauce which i usually buy for myself but i am going to cook it myself ! And i shall buy Vermont Curry brand cause that's the brand Tegoshi endorsed, AHAHAHAHAHA ~

Tegoshi can be so hot !

And not forgetting that smile ~ ! Kawaii ~ !

And of course, i love him best when he's with MASSU ! <3

P.S I meant to post a picture of my mum, but i think if i did, she'll kill me. AHAHA ~

2008-01-13T02:26:00.000+08:00

Konkon ~
I have rather a lot of things to blog about. :)
But i shall blog about how God have been so wonderfully good and gracious to me now and blog about the others tomorrow. Because i think this is just really amazing !!
Yappari, God works in very amazing ways ne ?

Well, i had noticed that during QT on thursdays/fridays, I would learn something I never knew, something new about God and/or about my relationship with God, or even about myself. Not that I do not learn on other days but not as much as when it is nearing the weekends.

The AMAZING thing is that, during saturday service, the sermon, the worship and all always seems to "confirm" what I've learned from QT on thursday/friday !! And not only that, i have realised that a certain something that i learned, that i realised in QT will always be mentioned during service .

And it didn't end there, I've realised that the sermons since we've stepped into 2008 are all VERY applicable to my expectations/resolutions for 2008 !

Isn't that amazing enough ?
And and and, He always answers me.
I have been insecure that God does not hear me, and today 3 words from God spoken by Shuzhen and I went OMG.

"I am listening..."

2008-01-13T01:24:00.000+08:00

KISS ~ Kaerimichi no Love Song
Ahh, yappari this is a very beautiful song with very beautiful lyrics !! :D
And watch the PV, it's super kawaii !
Look how both of them smiles , omg !
TegoMass is too cute, too cute !
And as if TomaPi isn't enough cuteness ... HAHAH !

Here's the (DVD version) PV <3

Romaji lyrics, sing along bah ~ ! ;D

Futari kiri no kouen kaerimichi no shiteiseki
Itsumo yori hashaideru kimi wo mitsume kiitemita
"Moshimo ashita sekai ga nakunattara dousuru?"
Kimi wa nani mo iwazu ni boku no ude wo gyutto shita ne
Ne kocchi wo muiteite
Kuchibiru ga chikasugite dokidoki tomaranai

Donna kimi mo donna toki mo uketomeru kara
Moshimo kokoro ga kizutsuite namida koboreru toki wa
Sekaijyuu wo teki ni shitemo kimi wo mamoru yo
I LOVE YOU Kotoba wa iranai yo
Kimi ga saigo no kiss itsumademo

Itsumono kaerimichi de nanimo dekinai wakatteru
Hoppeta fukuramasete
Te wo hanashite mou ikune
Ne kocchi wo muiteite
Kuchibiru ni chikazuite dokidoki tomaranai

Konna boku mo kimiga ireba tsuyoku nareru yo
Koi wa fushigi na mahou da ne nani mo kowakunai kara
Sekaijyuu wo teki ni shitemo hanashi wa shinai
STAND BY ME Dareka jya dame nanda
Kimi ni zutto soba ni ite hoshii

Ah mujyaki na sugao no mama kimi wa iu
"Ne obaachan ni nattemo kiss shite kureruno?"
Ne sonotoki wa boku datte onaji da yo
Tsunaida te hanashi wa shinai kara

Donna kimi mo donna toki mo uketomerukara
Moshimo kokoro ga kizutuite namida koboreru toki wa
Sekaijyuu wo teki ni shitemo kimi wo mamoru yo
I LOVE YOU Kotoba wa iranai yo
Kimi ga saigo no kiss itsumademo

And (of course) translated lyrics, they are very SWEET ~

On the way home from the park, just the two of us
Watching you being more happy than usual, I asked:
"What would you do if the world disappears tomorrow?"
You didn't say anything and just held my arm tighter Ne
Ne Look this way to me
Our lips are so close my heart wouldn't stop thumping

No matter how you act, no matter when it is, I'll always keep ahold of you
If you're hurt and tears fall,
Even if everyone around the world turn into enemies, I'll always protect you
I LOVE YOU I don't need any words
Your kiss is my last, forever

Our usual separating place, there's nothing I could do, I know
You blow up your cheeks, let go of our hands, and leave Ne
Ne Look this way to me
Our lips get closer together, my heart wouldn't stop thumping

Even if it's someone like me, I can get stronger if you're with me
Love is a strange magic, I'm not afraid of anything
Even if everyone around the world turn into enemies, I'll never let you go
STAND BY ME It can't be just anyone
I want you to stay by me

Ah~ with your innocent face you say:
"Ne, Are you still going to kiss me when I turn into a grandma?"
Ne When that time comes, it's the same for me
I will never let go of your hand

No matter how you act, no matter when it is, I'll always keep ahold of you
If you're hurt and tears fall,
Even if everyone around the world turn into enemies, I'll always protect you
I LOVE YOU I don't need any words
Your kiss is my last, forever

Ahh, it's so sweet ne ? ;D

2008-01-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

Tanjoubi Omedetou, ototo Ray-chan ! :D
Ahahaha, it's my brother's 9th birthday and please do not be fooled by his act-cuteness in this photo because he can be really annoying, HAHAH !
Well, anyway, although it's 99% that you will never read this (hahaha) , here's wishing you a happy birthday yea ? Don't be lazy, do your homework everyday and listen to Mum. And ALWAYS think of others before yourself yea ? ;D

Today is indeed a genki day ! Because it's not only my brother's birthday, it is also the day Toma's new dorama (Hachimitsu to Kuroba) starts airing in Japan ! :D
And he's absolutely kawaii in this new show where he will be acting as a totally different character from Nakatsu ! He is going to act as Yuta Takemoto who is a very shy boy, ohman, so cute ! HAHAH. Shucks i am fangirling even as i blog . -_-

Anyway, other than TomaPi , there is another pair of JE boys who i absolutely love ! They are so cute : TegoMass !! ;D
And their voices are really good ! TegoMass's songs are all so beautiful , especially Sunadokei !
Sunadokei is OMG ! Hahaha, it's so beautiful and it reminds me of an autumn afternoon spent with your loved one ! HAHAH ~ not that i have a loved one, and yes i mean the romantic type of loved one. Haha !

And the most important reason why today was such a genki day is because i spent time with JE-chan as well as my other CG members who i missed so much ! :) As JE-chan had mentioned on her blog, we used to see each other everyday and now we only see each other on sat ! :(

I really missed spending time with my CG members !
And i really have to thank God ! God is so good to me ! Just yesterday i was telling God during QT that i missed my CG and then we had CG on tuesday ! Ahhh, God you are so sweet ! <3
CG is love <3
JE-chan ! :D
Let's go bag-hunting soon !

Anyway, i want CG !! HAHAH ~
Okay, let's end off with a video of Toma !

Ahhhhh, yappari he's so kakkoii ~
OH and Coffee Prince is just cuteness ! ;D

2008-01-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

Reaching for love . Reaching for You . :)

I stand here before You
With wide open wonder
Amazed, at the glory of You
The power of heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You

I can't believe the way
Your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near
You lift me above my fears
And set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You

And I breathe in your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire

I stand here before You
With wide open wonder
Amazed, at the glory of You
The power of heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You

God , i love You . You know i do.
And i know, that You love me too.
I'm just so amazed , once again . :)

2008-01-04T00:28:00.001+08:00

Okay, i decided not to make my blog look so sad with that one tiny post below.
Anyway, after last saturday, i started to think things through with God and the results is the many many expectations that i've got for 2008. :)

I shall share it here.

1. 2008 will be a year where i will be seeking a closer, more intimate relationship with Daddy, know Him better and to know how He will react in different circumstances (of course, my goal would be every circumstance, but that's a rather hard isn't it ? ) and follow what He'd do. That means always asking myself, "What Would Jesus Do ?" :)

2. A year where i will rely on God in everything (try), big and small.
(Let me digress a little and share something ! During the O' Level period, it was one of my worst moments so far and i'm sure that many would agree but yet, it was also one of my best moments ! That's because i knew that i really relied on God a lot at that period ! And i was really thankful for God and that i can rely on Him so much, even in remembering about the History of Venice or what caused Japan to bomb Pearl Harbour. And i remember the many many encouragements from people which came so timely that i know it's definitely God who sent them through the many people around me, even when it's just a word of 'jia you !' And i remember that i even felt God's presence while doing my Chemistry paper and i knew that He was guiding me in each and every question. I remember i was dying with the overwhelming amount of geography knowledge to memorise and i cried out to God, "God, i can't do this alone. God, help me." and God did ! At the end of the day i finished that entire load of geography and Joanne and Bridget even visited me to encourage me ! I was really happy even amidst the fear and anxiety because i had relied on God. And i hate myself that i relied on Him less when O' Levels was over. I want to go back to the time which i relied on God so much and i want to rely on Him so much more. That's why i resolved to rely on God in every thing big and small in 2008. :D )

3. A year which i will be pursuing excellence in all aspects of my life, all that i do, so as to glorify God !

4. A year where i want to maintain Joy in all that i do, all aspects of my life. :D

5. A year of breakthroughs (especially in wisdom and courage) with God, which brings back to relying on God, amen ?

Ma, perhaps they are not that many of expectations. But i think they are more of BIG expectations, yea ? Well, my God is bigger than anything ! ;D

Okay, i think i better go now. Oyasumi ~

2008-01-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

Even though its 3, eh no, 4 days late, still here's wishing everyone Happy New Year ! :D
Hahaha, i just got back home today after staying with my Mum at a hotel which happens to be the one behind Meridien, HAHA !
So it was very convenient for me to go home last sat , haha ~

Anyway, i have lots of expectations for 2008 . ;)

2007-12-24T01:57:00.000+08:00

During Christmas, people ask each other what they want for their Christmas present. Some ask others what they are going to get for them at Christmas.

What is the best Christmas present you can give me ?
The best Christmas present i can ever receive from you is for you to receive Jesus into your life. For you to get to know Him for who He really is, to see you enjoy spending time with Jesus and to see you fall in love with Jesus while He showers and lavishes you with lots and lots of His love. :)

It is also for those who have slipped away from God to go back to Him.
That, my friends, is the best Christmas present you can ever give me. :)

2007-12-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO MY GOOD FRIEND, INGGRID GUNAWAN. :D

(Haha, i tried to find the best looking photo we took in class but this is the best, considering how unglam we are in school, HAHA. But remember, unglamness is glam, lol)

Inggrid, well i am really going to miss you when you leave today. Remember to mail us regularly and update us about your life there in London ! Haha, and remember to put studies first and not get distracted by xxxxxx ! ;D

Anyway, although we are not those type of good friends who talks about everything or anything or go out every single week and stuff, i know that i really do treasure this friendship a lot. And i know that i will miss all those retarded times we have cam-whoring in school during recess and the times we spent at Kino and Mos Burger, hahaha. I will miss all your whining about your certain crush (heh) and I will miss our fan-girling and discussions about a certain shojo manga or jdorama. Oh, and boy, i do miss the times we spent at your house lounge and i will continue to miss it, haha.

No matter what happens, i will always lend a helping hand if you ever need it alright? :D
Its a pity we didn't go to a prom together... But why don't we go Cosplay one day when you come back for the holiday ? Hahaaa ~

And, i understand that you are not concerned about religion at this point of time, but i just want to tell you that Christianity is really not a religion but a relationship with God and that the day you receive Jesus into your life, i will be delirious. I will be looking forward to that moment, haha ! :D

As mushy as it sounds, i love you and we will always be the 3 of us<3
We'll miss you, Iiko-chan ~

2007-12-14T01:29:00.000+08:00

"I promise to love and serve this care group with all my heart and with all i can. I will commit my time and my heart to this cg and will do the most I can to bring more people to know the love of Christ and fulfill CG08. I promise to never give up on my sheepies. And if there is anything wrong within this care group i promise to take the responsibility to correct it together with God even if i have to lose something in the process. And i will not leave, until i see Saint Marg's completed. "
Mila Palamita Fong, to Central C 2

2007-12-13T23:47:00.000+08:00

Yosh ~ ! :D
Milala, renewed and refreshed has come back to blog about the awesome X29 camp ! I have to say, X29 is one of my best camp so far, because this is one camp that i received most from God. :) However, i really really feel that this camp passed super fast, and i can't believe the camp i have been expecting for more than a month or so have already passed. And i really miss the 'camp' feel which is like doing life together with everybody, being in touch with everybody and of course, God.

But of course, we should be in touch with God 24/7, just that at camp, we don't have to worry about distractions from parents, friends and other stuffs like that, if you get what i mean ? Hehheh ~

Anyway, let me blog about X29. :D On the first day itself, other than having the thrill and joy of seeing everybody after 3 weeks, i had already received new revelations from God which makes me a very happy girl ! As we had our first P & W session, while singing the song 'You alone' God made me realize something (which is actually very simple), and that is indeed, God alone deserves all glory, all praise and everything else. And also, God deserves to be called 'Daddy' by everyone in the world. Also, if i, a sinner have the privilege to call God 'Daddy', everybody else in the world too, have the privilege, the so-called "right" to call God 'Daddy'. And this new realization is one that gives me the motivation to outreach even more to people around me and give them the privilege, the 'right' to call God 'Daddy'. :) And of course, it was an awesome p & w session.

God also spoke to me in the first teaching on the first day. And that is Reasons For Living a Normal Christian Life. Wow, never was it so convicting ! From this teaching i was reminded of God having to be the centre of our lives.

While i was in Indonesia, i thought i was honouring God and putting Him first when i always make the time to do God's things first such as preparing my QT materials for sheepies, worship sessions and sending the QT materials to my sheepies before i went on to watch DVDs and search on the net for Tomapi and other jap stuff. Never did i realise that the time i use to search for these japanese stuff and watching DVDs much was much longer than the time i spend with God and doing the things for God. I realise that i have been spending less time with God and more time with the computer and the tv. And anything that cools my love for Jesus is worldly. Man, i really need to make sure that God's position in my life is number one and nothing else as well as not threatened by anything else. I must not spend more time doing these silly things than spending time with God. Therefore, i have responded and i will do what i promised to God. And that is i am going to fast from jdoramas and tomapi-related websites. :D

Then came another direction and this came from Puiwah. She told me that i need to improve in terms of my confidence. And yes, i suppose i really do because of what happened on the second night. But then, i am not going to cultivate self-confidence, but God-confidence. Amen ? :)

Okay, that was first day and i am too tired to continue, haha ~
I will blog about the other days in a while. ;D
Whatever is it, it was a great camp. I enjoyed myself very much. :)

2007-12-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

Yosh ! :D
Milala is a happy girl today because i got to meet my grandmother and my aunt and cousins today ! And my baby cousin is seriously adorable ! You'll love him, Sandy ! ;D
He's barely 2 years old and he's afraid of Norbit (the big fat woman Eddie Murphy acted as) !
Haha, so cute ~
A pity i din't get to take a photo with him..

Ma, it sure is good seeing my grandmother (who raised me up as a baby) again after such a long time. :) But seeing her in her current state made me a little sad as well, cause i can see that she certainly has aged. And on top of that, things aren't as simple as before cause one of my uncles (who have converted to a Muslim) have been forcing her to convert into a Muslim, and not allowing her to go back to her jia xiang at Kalimantan. I can see that my grandmother is not as happy as the person she was before. :(

Pray for her with me, won't you ?
Pray that she'll go back to who she was before, happy and always laughing, and that she would be allowed to go back to her jia xiang because that is what she want.

On a lighter note, i really can't wait to see everyone in X29 this Sunday ! :D
See you on sunday, baby ~ !
(And somebody, please send me the packing list !)

2007-12-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

Hey, baby ~ !! :D
Hahaha, don't mind me.
Watching Hanazakari no Kimitachi e has influenced me to take their way of expressing excitement. Also, i have taken a habit of calling people baby... HAHA.

Anyway, back from Bali and i am tanner than before! :D
Hope that the tan doesn't fade away (which most probably will after a while).
And i've got small souveniers for everyone !
I think it's quite pretty that's why i chose them, and i hope you'll like them. ;D
May blog about my Bali trip next time, hahah.

Yesterday, i went to check my mail.
And after reading PW's very long and very convicting, inspiring as well as revelationing (i know there's no such word but you get what i mean) email, i was indeed very ... convicted, inspired and i got a new revelation about being a shepherd. :)
Indeed, what we really need to do as shepherds is not only to teach them strong biblical principles, but also to trust them and entrust them "tasks" that they will never think they can do but actually can. To stretch their potential instead of limiting them. :)
That's the best way they can learn isn't it , baby ? ;D

And God is indeed always on time. :)
I have been thinking on how i can help my sheepies and i have not reached any conclusions at all ! But then with PW's email, God gave me new directions as a shepherd. :D

On a random note, i strongly recommend everyone to watch Hanazakari no Kimitachi e as it really has lots of funny moments yet also many heartwarming scenes. It's a drama that can make you laugh like a mad woman as well make you tear especially at the end ! It's my favourite j-dorama and not just because Toma is in it, but because of all the laughs and the many scenes that make you go 'awww' and it taught me many things too !

Mizuki had taught me the courage to take ownership of your responsibility and the courage to actually take action. Who would have such courage to dress as a boy and go to an all-boys school ? She had also taught me about perseverance, baby ! Look at the perseverance she had to persuade Sano to high jump again, and even when her brother turned agaisnt her!

And Nakatsu? He may be really goofy, retarded and funny (and cute! HAHAHA) most of the time, but doesn't he teach you the true meaning of loving a person and frienship? He loved Mizuki whether she is a boy or a girl and although he really liked Mizuki, he still cared about Mizuki and Sano's friendship when its at a rough tide and even tried to help them reconcile ! And he also shown me the importance of expressing how you really feel, like how he always does to Sano about Mizuki. :D

Hahaha, and may i make another recommendation ?
Another j-dorama with a goofy, retarded (and cute! HAHA) character, Nobuta Wo Produce !
This dorama is full of laughs and had definitely taught me about trust in true friendship. And this i learn, from the very adorably goofy Akira ! The trust he had for Shuuji even after seeing the picture of Nobuta hugging Shuuji (since he had fallen in love with Nobuta which in my opinion is super cute!) ! And that is true frienship, trusting your friend with all your heart even when the whole world had turned against her and even when everything seems to point that she had betrayed you. ;D

Actually, another muse i had, was that you can learn just about anything from everything. Even worldly stuff, or worldly people. Cause no matter how worldly a person is, he/she is also created by God. And with that, there must be somethin good within her, even if it's only a teeny little bit. Yeah, baby ? ;D

And wordly stuff ? Ma, they are "created" by people who are created by God, aren't they ?
No matter how bad a person or something is, always remember that there is sure to be a good side of him/her/it cause everything, including him/her/it is primarily created by God who is good. :D

Okay, i have more musings to type about but i think it's time to hit the sack.
I'm meeting my Grandmother and my aunt tomorrow, baby ~ ;D

2007-11-28T15:03:00.000+08:00

Haha, milala is eating katsu bento now and it's very delicious.
However, it would be out of this world if there was curry. :D
Katsu curry bento is the best !
Haha ~

Anyway, i had a good session of private worship just now. :)
Okay, this is a very random post.
I'm going off now.
I want to finish my katsu bento and rewatch episode 3 of Nobuta Wo Produce, HEHHEH.

Oh and Joanne !
I wanted to reply your tag on your blog but then it won't load...
Hahaha, anyway, i tried to but it took ages to download so i gave up, haha!
See you and everybody else in camp, darling ! :D

2007-11-27T11:47:00.000+08:00

Yosh ! :D
Haha, milala is here to update my life a little !
Anyways, i've really been an unglam kid over here.
But then again, since when was i glam ?
HAHAH ~
See, i'm a secure kid. ;D

Okay, sorry, there must be something wrong with my head.
Anyway, something terrible happened !
And that is i finally cut my hair !
And my fringe is TOO SHORT ! >:(
So most probaly, i'll be pinning up my fringe from now on.
Prepare to see milala with her fringe up on the 9th of Dec!
AHAHA !

Okay, i think watching too much DVDs really have made me nuts. :\
Oh wells, gomen ~

Anyway, last weekend was spent at the mountains and it was quite coolios.
The scene was breathtaking and i was awed once again by God's mighty creative hands which created the landscape. And the atmosphere was nice and cool.
Unfortunately, the hotel really sucks, HAHA.
Especially the toilet.. :P
Just being really honest, heh.

And this week i'll be flying off to Bali for 4 days, haha.
I'll remember your Bali sand in a milo can, hosannanana. :D
Anyone else wants souveniers ?

And i have been wathing Nobuta Wo Produce other than Hanazakari no Kimitachi E (Or Rinokimi as Oguri Shun calls it, HAHAH) !
I can't help but to think Yamapi as Akira is so adorable !
Not that i didn't think Yamapi wasn't adorable cause he is, but Akira is really really cute !
HAHAH.

I love Tomapi and it's my dream to watch a Tomapi dorama !
HAHAHA, that would be cuteness beyond cuteness !

Anyway, i had wanted to blog this a long time ago, but couldn't cause i was busy whilst in Singapore and then i forgot to blog about it when i reached here.
And that is, Toma-kun is going to act in a new dorama called Honey & Clover (yes, it's a manga and an animae adapted to a dorama) !!
What's more, he's going to be the lead actor, ahahah ~

Okay, i think i'm going off to stalk some blogs, heh.
Oh and i've changed my email to milala.joyfulnoisemaker@gmail.com
Please take note and JE, i have Toma scans to send you ! ;P

2007-11-21T00:29:00.000+08:00

Milala is here to update my life ! :D
Hahaha, my life here is rather relaxed.
Fine, very relaxed ! Hehheh ~

Anyway, for the past few days, i've been getting lots of sleep and lots of food, HAHA.
I never have to worry aout eating what for lunch/dinner anymore !!
And it's mostly home-cooked, yayy ! :D
And in a matter of a few days, i've been hooked on to my brother's favourite cartoon ( i still love cartoons okay ! HAHA), Avatar, the last Air bender.
Quite interesting really. :D

Anyway, honestly, it was very hard for me to leave service on saturday !
And i even felt like crying ! Hahaha, and i thought to myself, what will ever happen if i have to leave Singapore for good ? :(

But but but, i was very happy to be on duty for instruments on saturday for the first time.
I had lots of funn and well, i hope it was good cause i gave it my bestest shot . Haha.

Okay, internet here is dial-up, so it's quite lousy.
But it's definitely better than nothing ! :)
Least, i can send QT materials to my sheepies as well as update my blog and keep myself updated on things going on in Singapore.
Hehehe, i'll be stalking your blogs...

Oh and i've to tell about my second day here !
I went to my mum's friend's birthday party on sunday, and she is SUPER rich !!
Her house is as big as a palace with 3 storeys and not only that.
It's complete with it's own swimming pool, orchard garden and fishing pond !
Even have a fishing podium(pavillion ?) and they have (rachel, you'll love this) pet ducks !
HAHA, and they've got 28 maids and butlers.
Crazy or what ?

Anyway, her son is my brother's friend at school, so there were cute kids there at the party.
Stick to my mum with the other mums most of the time though cause of my bahasa indonesia inability, so i didn't get to play with the kids.
And one of my brother's friend very cute and pretty !
His eyes very nice with super long eye-lashes ! HAHA.
And no, i'm NOT a paedophile.

Okay, i better get going now.
And i'm rather disappointed cause chances of ALL my sheepies' going to camp are rather low.
But i'll choose to believe and continue to pray that Carolyn can come for the first day and that Weiyan's parents would allow her to come. :)

See you in camp ! :)

2007-11-17T01:52:00.000+08:00

MILALA HAS RECONCILED WITH SHEEMEEFEE AND MILALA IS VERY HAPPY ABOUT THAT. :D I LOVE SHEEMEEFEE. :D

2007-11-15T20:50:00.000+08:00

Mila is a very happy girl today ! :D

Simply because CC had a supercalifragilisticexpialidocious time of good fellowship at my house baking cookies and making sandwich for tomorrow's MCG , as well as watching Hanazakari no Kimitachi e together. (YES, we watch Hana Kimi Jap together, hahah ! :D)

And CC prayer meet was very very refreshing and yeah, i've discovered even newer things about God. :) I have realised that yes, God chose me and set me apart for this role in Central C and His Kingdom since the beginning.

Since i was a new believer, God had called me by name and He had taken my hand and placed me in His family, pouring me with love. And He had chosen me to stay in the family even when those who came in with me had left. He had given me the privilege to serve as a shepherd. :)
And i know that i have all that I need as a shepherd in God, and that He'll lead me to become a better person, a better Christian, a better friend, a better daughter, a better shepherd. :)

I just want, more of God and more of the Holy Spirit in my life as i serve. :D
And I can't wait to see CC again tomorrow, hehheh.
Imagine all the funn we're going to have !
Then i'll be leaving and i won't see CC again till camp. ):

Oh another reason why i'm delirious today is that Hosanna is coming for service this Sat. :D
And that's just great great great, hahah !

Anyway, i have proved my point that Toma-kun is a superbly talented and kawaii as well as kakoii actor cause i'm not the only one who loves Toma Ikuta, ahahahahaha!
So does JE and i know that Yuxin thinks he's kawaii too, hehhehheh. ;D

Okay, i need to continue with my QT materials for sheepu.
So good night and sleep tight !

Consume my thoughts as i rest in You
I'm now in love, with a Saviour
Bearing the marks of His love

2007-11-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

Indeed, God is a God that never condemns but convicts His people . :)
Yesterday was a great service !
And something struck me very hardly yesterday,
and that is although yes, i want to make a difference in Africa,
first, i have to make a difference in my school.

I didn't think about it till i got home though.
And i started thinking, have i made a difference in my school ?
Perhaps a little, or perhaps none at all.
Undoubtedly, i was disappointed in myself .

But then somehow, something in me seemed to have moved on from it, and is focusing more on what i can do in the near future for the school, it was conviction.
Yet, there is also another voice in my head which seems to say that i should be guilty and remorseful, it was condemnation.

But i knew that God isn't One who condemns, and i knew that that voice which told me to move on and focus on what i can do in the near future for the school is God. :)
And that the stupid voice which is telling me to feel guilty is stupid satan.

Ugh, stupid satan's voice again.
Too bad satan, i'm not going to entertain your disgusting voice. HAH !

And God convicted me to just really focus on taking good care of my sheep(s) as well as Mell's sheep(s) which i was entrusted to whilst she's away. (& She'll take care of my sheep(s) when i'm away, hahah)
Convict and compel them to come for every cg and service and of course, most importantly camp ! :D

I really hope that my sheep(s) (as well as Mell's) would be able to come for camp !
I was doing QT on friday night, and i was just praying for all the hope juniors (hahah, that's what we called the spiritual young ones) and i can see them , as i was worshipping, i can see them being part of Central C, enjoying their time with God and God's people and worshipping God .

And i told God,
Oh man, God, please let this come to pass this Dec !!
Hahah !

And i will keep praying about this, everyday, that the hope juniors will be able to come for camp ! God, i can't convict them to camp without You, please work out something in their hearts ! :)

Even as i'm going overseas for three long weeks, i will not cut off any connections with my sheep(s). I was planning of preparing QT materials for them (which i still don't know where to find but i'll find it ! ) as well as having online dates with them, HAHAH !

Hey, online shepherding is possible okay ! ;D
Okay, i'm going to sleep now.
I have an afternoon paper tomorrow and i want to do some more MCQs in the morning.
And i'm sorry for not sharing the songs yet , heh.

Although we fail, the Cross prevails
Forgiveness stands, You take me back again

2007-11-07T20:58:00.000+08:00

Mila was not a good girl yesterday. :(
Cause Mila did not do purely geography, but instead allowed herself to go online.
My fangirling mode was on yesterday, heeheehee ~

Anyways, was a bit stressed this morning.
But when i asked around, barely anybody studied geog thoroughly.
So i'm not that bad. :P
Okay okay, i know this is the wrong attitude.

Geography paper 1 is over !
And that means no more geography in my whole life !
= i'm a happy girl. :D

You know before Geog paper 2, i was so stressed and i stated that i wished i took pure History, considering that my History was better that Geog in sec 2 .
But then when i did my elective History paper, i wasn't able to finish.
And i told myself,
okay, thank goodness i didn't take pure History !
HAHAH ~

But actually, i really kind of like History.
I think it's pretty interesting, but then i don't exactly like doing it as a subject.
So yeah .

Anyway, i was on livejournal yesterday (heehee, my communities) .
And i found a lot of good stuff ,
one of the best being Toma's recent butai photos and scans on the butai pamphlet !
If only i could watch it !
But even if i were to not have O'levels, i wouldn't have the money to watch it anyway, hahah !

ヴェローナの二紳士 ,
Gentlemen of Verona ~
Toma-kun as Valentine, sugoii !

Haha, i shall save money to get the DVD !
But then again, i have yet bought Cat In Red Boots DVD.
Hahaha, so we'll see if i'll have remaining money after paying for church camp. :D
Meanwhile, i shall start saving up for ヴェローナの二紳士. ;)

Anyway, i'm having a lot of expectations about my trip back to my hometown,
as well as for church camp.
In indonesia , i'm going to start self-teaching myself guitar. :D
And i will want to be the best daughter i can be so that i can make an impact in my family.
Also, will want to continue to learn to be a better worshipper !
Even at home ! :D

But i'm also sad to have to miss THREE weeks of service and ministry-related stuffs. :(
AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR CAMP ALREADY , HAHAHA !
Despite haven't even paid for it yet. :P

Okay, this aside,
I've downloaded (oops) the entire Saviour King album, as well as a new Hillsong United album called In a Valley by the Sea, haha !
And the songs are very very very nice ! :D
I want to share them here the next time i blog, which should be tomorrow, HAH.

One reason why and how i found the album was because i was desperate for the song "'To Know Your Name" (which had become my favourite song).
I fell in love with it during P & W last week.
Don't you think the lyrics are beautiful ?

I read the book For One More Day, and it was so touching it made me cry.
The book said that a mother's love is the purest love ever.
Although yes, a mother's love is pure, but i beg to differ,
cause the Saviour's love is the purest love ever. :)

2007-11-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

Greeting, World ! :D
Mila is back to save her dying blog !
HAHAH, okay and so don't mind my crappiness,
O' levels have caused my brain cells to degenerate itself.
(see what i mean by crappiness ?)

Hahah, internet access was restored right smack in the middle of O' levels but i resisted the urge to blog till the end of my major writter papers.
Heehee. :D
I finished my major written papers today !
Ending with biology, my (honestly) best subject ironically as the (i think) worst done paper.

Still, i want to put my hope in my Daddy and choose to believe that whatever results i get for bio, as well as other subjects, will be what He want me to get and yes, i trust in Him. :)
(As long as i get to any JC, i won't mind already, i have to get to JC so as to get into uni for the sake of my mummy as well as my ambition and of course for God !)

Really want to thank God for all this time that He had shown absolute faithfulness !
His presence was always around and His encouragement came in big and small , through His Word and through people around me. :)
And i want to thank all of you people who are always offering encouragement and prayers whenever i ever needed it. :)
Especially people like Sandy and Calean (my lovely Barnabas !) . :D

Oh and ALL THE BEST FOR SUBSEQUENT PAPERS, A' Level students ! :)
I'll pray for all of you, and remember to focus on God even as you study, and trust in Him and His faithfulness which never ever fails !
GANBATTE !

3 more MCQ papers and i'm done with O' levels !
I'm going to do purely geography tomorrow for Wednesday's MCQ,
and then i'll just do Chemistry and Biology MCQ after MCQ. :D

I know You gave,
the world Your only son for us to know Your name ~

2007-09-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO BE LIKE DANIEL !

We are in the world,
Not of the world,
Yet influencing the world. :D

Choose to honour God first, choose discipline over disorder. :)
1 Samuel 2:30
And i'm too lazy to blog already, hahah.
Will be back soon , prolly after Central chalet (tomorrow) !

2007-08-14T21:31:00.000+08:00

Ore wa homo jyanai !! >:\

Hahah, Nakatsu is just far too kawaii.. :P
Going to reply my tags, then maybe i'll blog random stuff or something, hahah.

mimi: HAHA, honto ? OTP lah, OTP ! ;D And i must be really dense, not knowing that, and i didn't even know what's OTP till 2 days ago ! But i like referring to them as best friends, isn't the term best friends very kawaii and childlike ? Okay, maybe i'm just weird... LOL.
Awww, thanks ! I haven't forgot about you loving gums. :) And i'll buy you gums if i come across some. :D

mel: Haha, yeah ! And your earpiece still with me. :P

puiwah: Haha, i didn't put the warning for nothing ! And break SMSS goal lah, haha ! And yeah, I'm alright, i know that Daddy knows best and He allowed that to happen for a reason, whatever reason that is, haha. (cause i haven't think of one yet) OH, and congrats for your A1 + Distinction ! :)

Mila: Awww, and i return you your hug ! :D Haha ! But pardon me ah, haha, who are you

(Note: This is NOT a tag from myself to myself !)

joanne*: Hehheh ! :D HUG ! Anyway, thanks for showing your concern to me last night ! :) ICE CREAM DATE NOT FULFILLED ! You like apples right ? :D

abigail: AHAHA ! :D Let's go drama watching together when O's and A's are over ! :D

Yayy, finish !

Anyway, Chinese O' level results are out.
Haha, didn't do very well, I've got a B4 and merit for Orals.
I'm going to retake as i've said before.
Hana, i don't think you'll read this but anyway,
let's ganbatte together for Chinese O' level retaking ! :)

OH, Congrats to Puiwah and my sheep for getting A1 and distinction ! :)

Anyway, something random (and i don't even know if it's correct ! I'm an unreliable source, lol)
I speculated out that the romaji 'ma' is the chinese word 真 in kanji .
Cause Toma's name in kanji is 斗真 and Inoue Mao (she's super cute) is 井上真央 in kanji.
The Ma in Mao is 真 and the ma in Toma is also 真, so,
ma = 真 :D

HAHA, okay, i'm being retarded.
Just rememered that i had a FUNN camwhoring session with Yuko and Iiko in school just now.
It was hilariously funn, we should take more photos. :)

And i went to consult Mrs Low for math after school
(short session cause i had to rush to the bank to replace my ATM) ,
and she was so so nice !
She encouraged me a lot, she said that my math foundation is not weak at all,
and that the reason why i don't do well is because i always fear the questions and always tell myself that 'i can't do it'. And she believes that i can do it. :)

I was motivated to do math, and i still am. :)
Think i should be going already,
Great, i'm getting hungry !

Every little thing's gonna be alright :)

2007-08-12T00:39:00.000+08:00

I LOVE TOMAPI ♥

Haha , i wanted to blog about today but then was too tired to, i'll be back soon to blog more !
Anyway, i've revived my never-exactly-alive livejournal and i've posted a post on Tomapi over there.
Basically, i've been blogging about all my Jappu frenzy there, lol. :P

But anyway, i really want to share about Tomapi and how their beautiful their friendship is ! So i'm going to post what i've posted over on the other side ;

I AM CURRENTLY DYING DUE TO TOMAPI'S CUTENESS ! HAHA ! ;D
Really, they are such a cute pair of best friends, and it really warms my heart (i'm sure it'll warm up your heart too) to see that such beautiful friendship exists out there, in the entertainment world.
READ THIS. AND THIS
And you'll get what i mean, i don't believe your heart won't melt. :)

Yamapi has known Toma for half his life,
and Toma even remembers the shirt Yamapi was wearing the first time they met.
Toma says "Let's stay together 'til we die!"
And Yamapi says, "Toma’s importance doesn’t have to be stated! (Laugh)"
AHHH, my heart is melting till it can't melt anymore , LOL !

Look at them, from (Yamapi is so pretty as a boy while Toma is so adorable !)
to (they have both grown up to be such Ikemen ! LOL, and they are still the best friends they were since they were 11/12 !)
And it really sets me thinking, how many of such genuine friendships exists in this fallen world ?
Not many.
And even in the entertainment world !
But there's one friendship i know that will last forever,
and that is my (and yours too, if you have) friendship/relationship with Jesus. :)

I love TOMAPI and I love my JESUS! ♥

Okay, this is really -_- but honestly, I really hope Tomapi (and all my other Jappu faves) are Christians or will become Christians then,
I CAN SEE THEM IN HEAVEN !!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :P

Anyway, today i really enjoyed my time with Yuko (Reicheruu = Rachel) and Iiko (Inggurido = Inggrid) at SSC and Central despite the limited time. :)
And i seriously loved service today, Praise and Worship was awesome and during that, i have a feeling/vision (can't remember) that I was singing Till I See You and ohmygosh, we sang Till I See You for altar call.

So coolios, haha ! And i loved the sermon as well.
It's really brings me back to basics , simple yet so so powerful. :)
Will blog more about today , going to sleep first if not tomorrow will be too tired to study.
Oyasumi !

2007-08-06T18:53:00.001+08:00

Think, Toma, think ! ;D
Warning: Long post ahead !

puiiwah: Haha, yeah ! We'll break the goal ! And i had funn in Mac's with you today ! :D and by O' levels surely can lah ! :)

mimi: I know ! So hot also, they always off the fan ! Hahaha. I never see you very long already ! :(

clarissa: Haha ! I reply on your blog already ! Anyway, how did you find FOP ? :D

Calean: HAHA, Calean ! And i'll give you a HUG ! <3

inggrid: HAHA ! Ohmygosh, you're declaring it online ! Hahaha!

joanne*: Haha ! Yeah ! :D Ice cream when ?

SHERLYN: YOU TOO ! Ganbatte ! :D

Started saturday by meeting my sheep for shepherding (a successful one at last ! Haha..) and we had a good talking session over brunch of Long John's combo 1. :D
I think my sheep is doing pretty well , she just needs the commitment .
Actually Puiwah said she had always been alright, just need to commitment. :)
Didn't have time for teaching though.

Then i brought her for 1st service, but then we were late ! :(
I didn't know 1st service started so early , felt really guilty for bringing my sheep for service late. But can see that she really enjoyed the service. :)
YAYY, Mila is a happy shepherd, haha !

Hope that she'll come for all subsequent 1st services. :)
After sending her off, had duty for 2nd service,
think i screwed it up. :\
But i LOVE the song : What Can I Do. :D

Then after service, we went to celebrate Bridget's birthday ! :D
Hope she really enjoyed it, haha.
The cheesecake was really good ! :D

Then i went to Epicentre to tell them about poor Vanilla whose top had a horrible warp. It kept popping up. :( They say they have to refer to Apple first before they can take any action. :(

Don't understand why Vanilla became like that though, when i got the stupid dent, there wasn't any warp. It just appeared ! And i don't even know how the dent came about ! When i dropped it, there wasn't any dent. The dent just appeared as well. Poor Vanilla. :(

Sunday !
Haha, tried to meet up with Sandy at 9am but failed very badly.
9am we still sleeping, HAHA.
We finally met at 11+ and at last after so long, i saw Jiemin !! :D
Haha, quite good to see her , then we went to eat Cafe Cartel.
But it was too expensive so we did the most retarded thing ever !
We just walked out if Cafe Cartel then went to Pastamania, hahah.

After that was study time, didn't do much. :(

AND, highlight of Sunday is Festival Of Praise ! :D
Thank you God, for this opportunity of going FOP for the first time !
I totally do not regret going at all, it was so coolios !
I seriously love Delirious? now ! HAHA!

I think Delirious? and their songs are super cool !
Their lyrics are very different and seem have a hidden meaning behind them.
Lyrics which reflects the world today and makes you think.
And it also always go back to God !
Our God Reigns, whooo !

And Don Moen's songs are simple yet so powerful !
That one country sounding song is super cute , HAHA !

Pastor Phil Pringle is super anointed and super funny !
He really make you realize really obvious thing that you never took notice of !
Like Devotions and quiet time,
it's not about praying but it's about connecting with Daddy. :)
And also, when we make room for God, we're making room for miracles, renewals and revivals to happen !
Like what Mary did, she honoured God and then Jesus was born and then we can be saved !
Oh and we must always stretch to renew and revive.
Stretch out toward non-believers to bring them to Christ.
Stretch towards backslided/backsliding believers to revive them !

Then we had P & W again, and thank God for this revival and re-motivation.
Whilst singing History Maker, i was 100% motivated and inspired to be a History Maker.
AND YES, i will be a History Maker for Jesus !
I'll show my history teacher that i will be a History Maker. HAH !

Is it true today that when people pray
Cloudless skies will break
Kings and queens will shake
Yes it's true and I believe it
I'm living for You

Is it true today that when people pray
We'll see dead man rise
And the blind set free
Yes it's true and I believe it
I'm living for You

I'm gonna be a history maker in this land
I'm gonna be a speaker of truth to all mankind
I'm gonna stand, I'm gonna run
Into Your arms, into Your arms again
Into Your arms, into Your arms again

Well it's true today that when people stand
With the fire of God, and the truth in hand
We'll see miracles, we'll see angels sing
We'll see broken hearts making history
Yes it's true and I believe it
We're living for You

Holy is the Lord
And my heart burns for You

Whooo ! I'm going to be a history maker !
Yhopes are going to be history makers ! :D
OH, Abigail and i think Martin Smith is very handsome, heheh. :P

Anyway, i'm very sad cause i lost my card holder with all my cards in it. :(
But somehow i feel that the Holy Spirit tells me to trust in God that i'll get it back.
Somehow, i have a crazy thought that some Saint Marg's girl will pick it up and then she sees my Yhope card inside and then became interested in Yhope then say she's willing to come for service when she returns me the card holder ! :D

And i pray by faith that that will happen. ;)
I'm gonna run into Your arms

2007-08-06T18:29:00.000+08:00

As i've said i will be back with a decent post.
Anyway, look at my above picture !
Isn't he absolutely adorable ? :D

Haha, i wanted to blog about this for very long already !
Last last Sunday morning i dreamt that i've got a new baby brother !
And he was so so so kawaii and adorable and i was very happy. :D
Then i woke up and when i realise it was all a dream, i was very sad.
HAHA, i really want my imaginary baby brother !
And i shall give him a name and it should be Jadon cause that's the name i gave my baby cousin in my compo, lol.

Jadon is so kawaii !
Anyway, i shall summerise last week except weekend (blogging in next post) since i didn't blog at all.

Monday:
Haha, was bankrupt for the week ! Went to toa payoh library for CC2 meeting then study with Sandy and thank God for her, if not i wouldn't be able to eat dinner. Yayy, i love Sandy ! :D

Tuesday:
MRT sucks today although chapters tested are more of my stronger topics. Shucks, i hate math !! Then had teaching from Puiwah, haha. :D

Wednesday:
Got into BIG trouble with LSB today. Okay, i know that i'm always falling asleep in his class, but to me, his lessons are really boring ! And i suppose, i must have shown really bad attitude to him and i'm not proud of that. BUT he didn't need to say this "You walk around in school as though you're half-dead ! What are you doing ? Saving all your energy for Judgement day ?" which made me so angry ! I wanted to say something back, but i don't know what i can say. And i suppose that would make things worse.

He's really mean and sarcastic though, he thought that i've totally given up on my combined humanities and when i said i haven't, he went: "Oh really ? That's a surprise to me !" And he says i'm on his black list. :\ Have to sleep early tonight and tomorrow night to stay awake in his class, lol.

Thursday:
Hahah, can't remember what happened today. Had Towie's lesson then went to see my juniors practicing for Cluster Arts since i'm not staying to watch them dance on the day itself. (Have CG) and wow, i thought it was a really good item ! :D

Friday:
Cluster Arts ! But didn't go, haha. Had CG at Istana Park. Had JE & M's (Jing Er & Mila) worship session. :) JE was really deserve an affirmation ! She had a cold yet she still sung with all her heart ! :) Then had Music Prac after that. Did instruments for the first time and it's super funn ! :D

Okay ! That was my week . :D
And i'll be back in a jiffy to post another post !

2007-08-04T23:56:00.000+08:00

I wanted to blog. then i was lazy , HAHAHA.
AIYAH BUSY WEEK LAH.
I'll be back to delete this post and blog a decent one by monday. :)

OH, and i got into trouble with LSB.

Met up with my sheep and brought her to 1st service !
Hope she'll continue to come for 1st service . :)

2007-07-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

Note: I forgot to say that i replied the previous taggs at the end of my previous posts.

bridget: YEAH ! You go all the way too ! And i'll invite my SCGS friend again and again, every week ! :)

puiiwah: Puiwah ! Read below . :D I WILL NOT EVER GIVE UP !

joanne*: Haha, yah so sad ! When shall we have Ice Cream then ? :D And i will not give up, i will not give up, i will never give up ! :D

Okay, why i placed the depressed looking Nakatsu was because, i don't deny,
I AM SAD cause we didn't hit our goal of 32 !

But then , on a lighter note, we hit 29, which is just 3 away from our goal and it is a great improvement and as Puiwah had told me, don't think of the ifs anymore, but make the ifs reality next week . :)

And my ifs which will become reality are :
1. My sheep to come for 1st service since she can't ever come for 2nd.
2. Euphoria to come for service.
3. Hannah Swee to come for service.
4. Carolyn to come for cg.
5: Deborah to come for service.

Yeah . :)
As i've said, i will not give up !
It will become reality !
Too bad stupid satan, i won't ever let go of God's hand and promise. ;)

Oh and i finished my weekend hw today !
Except for history cause i needed to refer to something, this means tomorrow i can study more. :D
Must keep Bio consistent, Bio must get A1 !!

2007-07-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

Awww, isn't Toma kawaii ?
Hahaha, randomness.

Anyway, i choose this photo to show that, I'm having that type of feeling now,
"Too bad, satan ! 32's ours and we have God, you don't, we'll win ! AHAHA :P "
Okay, i think i'm being retarded.

But Mila is a very happy girl now because, Praise God,

1. Euphoria text-ed me to ask about ESS, which shows she has an interest in coming ! :D And she did say, she'll see if she can come ! :) :)

2. Hannah Swee is coming for ESS, and i asked her to invite Hosanna. :)

3. Carolyn is willing to come for CG ! :D

4. I did well for my Bio plants test despite thinking that i was going to get some really low or at most, mediocre results ! :) Hope i can maintain by Bio grades.

And it's still monday, i still have time to invite even more people !! :)
Then just now at Bishan Popular, we saw 3 SCGS girls and so we impromptu (once again) write survey forms outside Popular and appoached them to request that they help us with the survey, lol. :)

We will be triumphant !

mimi: AHAHA, you admit you're mimi ! LOL, and if i'm demanding what about the bus driver who asked you to pay adult fare ? Haha, anyway enjoyed talking to you a lot that time on msn ! :D

SHERLYN: Awww, thanks so much Sherlyn ! :) I won't condemn myself, if i do, i'm entertaining the stupid thoughts stupid satan placed in my head again ! :D I'll definitely Ganbatte more than ever ! See you tomorrow and i love you too ! <3

tracee: Hello tracee ! I haven't got to say hi to you lately, lol. And as i said, i won't anymore cause that's just entertaining stupid satan ! Haha ! Thanks for your encouragement, tracee ! Hope to say hi to you this sat , and Ganbatte for A' Levels !

joanne*: Yea, I won't ! :) Fear is just stupid satan's tool and yes ! Ice cream tomorrow, i better bring money, lol. See you tomorrow Joanne ! I love you ! <3

Amanda: Haha ! Hello Amanda ! I think Amanda has a beautiful height ! :)

Okay, i'm off ! :D

2007-07-23T22:32:00.000+08:00

Ehh ? I thought i'm fully recovered since i haven't gotten any stomach aches and headaches and i'm off medication ! So i happily went on to drink my favorite Vanilla Mos-shake. :)

And i got a stomach ache attack, on a Sunday (yesterday) morning which woke me up from from my sleep, and another at 9 +, going to ten last night, then another attack at recess today. :(
To make things worse, i'm out of medication.
there is no more medicine, only painkillers.

Ahh, shan't think about this , lol.

I realised that i forgot to blog about speech day !
I wanted to blog about Eunice Olsen, the guest-of-honour for speech day.
I never thought much of her before, and i didn't think she was pretty.

But when i saw her real life (though not very clear),
she's like WAHH, very pretty ! :D
Besides that, even if she wasn't that pretty,
she would still be really pretty because of that beautiful heart of hers !

After her speech or talk or whatever (lol),
to me, she became someone who is like Todou Shizuka to Makino, haha !
And she was our senpai as well, although much more our senior. (14 years)
She's like my role-model !

I had a big urge to talk to her after speech day, haha.
I wanted to tell her that I want to be someone like her,
having a heart for those who are less fortunate,
going to third world countries to offer hope, to serve the underserved.
Especially children who are infected with AIDS/Tb and other horrible diseases.

And i don't post this or post my ambition on my blog to publicise to the world that i'm like some kind soul or i'm very good or whatever.
NO, it's not about me, but it's about God.
It's about how God had give me this ambition and gave me this burden for AIDS infected children (and adults alike) , how He had changed my life and perceptions.
How He had opened my eyes, and made me want to take the road less traveled.

It's all about my God, who i really love. <3
& i know He loves me too. :D

On top of that, i seriously love Classical music.
How can one think it boring ?
It brings you to another world, a beautiful world of peace, emotions and imagination. :)

I totally fell i love with Vanessa Mae, especially tracks like:
I'm A-Doun for lack O' Johnnie (A little Scottish Fantasy)
Nessun Dorma {From Turandot}
Bach Street Prelude
Art Of War
Happy Valley
Contradanza
The Original Four Seasons - Summer (I)
The Original Four Seasons - Winter (II) :)

Ask me for the songs if you want ! :D

2007-07-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

I still think Yusuke is weird, but he's very nice as Kayashima in Hana Kimi ikemen paradise . :)

meL: Yup ! I definitely did it all for God ! :) And i really didn't know that, i'll relink soon !

sandy: I KNOW ! See you tomorrow sandy ! :D

Sherman: AMEN, i agree ! Love God more and hate satan more, he's so stupid okay, lol. And SORRY that i connected the wrong cable to the D.I box creating a large confusion when you were setting up your guitar. :(

joanne*: YES ! :) No matter what happens, we still have something to thank God for. He had given Jesus for us and made us his children. :) Thanks Joanne ! And am i treating you on this coming tuesday ? We're going Central !! :D Haha !

calean: CALEAN ! :D Hahaha, thanks for your tag as well as your encouragement just now, it makes me feel much better. :) Indeed, God is a God of unconditional love that no one can ever take away ! Haha, yup and you ganbatte too, calean !

Chantal: Haha, okay ! :D How are you ? Never talk to you for quite long already !

cm: Haha, fine. Anyway, i have funn talking to you on MSN ! :D Must meet up more okay ? And watch Jap dramas together after 13th November ! :D

Tags replied ! :)

Anyway, first time on duty for ESS and for both service.
I was so excited and stressed just now .
(& tired )

Met up at 8.45 am at Nexus to practice first.
Honestly, i was O_O when i found out the time to report, lol.

ESS's musical presentation was so cool !! :D
Even watching it from backstage was like, WAHHH.
HAHA, i especially like the Friendship and the band pieces. :) Oh and i liked the Love song too !

First service's music presentation screwed up a bit due to some technical glitches.
But i thought it was my fault that Yu(?) Shan's mic was not working, and i was so sad that i was crying a bit during sermon. LOL.

But Puiwah who came for first service with Yuxin said the improvisation of Qian Jin sharing his mic with her was super sweet. :)

Second service's presentation was quite smoothly done. :)
I hope i did an okay job, and i know i'm not good in my skills but i'm still trying to improve.
& i know you will never read this (maybe except Sherman) , but still, i'm sorry to ALL musicians !! i'm just too dense and slow-reactioned to realise what you asking for !
SORRY ! :(

But despite all stresses and tiredness and hunger (lol),
i was really privileged to be able to serve in ESS.
And even for both service ! :D
Thank you Jiayi and Thank You, God !

Was very overwhelmed with mixed feelings just now during second service's altar call.
I was happy cause i see people getting to know God,
but yet i know it's not from Central C, so i was really sad about that.
Was about to condemn myself again , then we were singing the chorus of the altar call song,

"And I'll sing, sing I love you so,
I'll sing because the world can't take away,
Your love "

And that beautiful line,
(I'll sing because the world can't take away Your love)
made me realise, yes, i have God's love within me and no one can ever take it away.

No one, not even stupid satan .
And with God's everlasting love in us, we'll definitely love people cause of 1 John 4:19 "We love because He first loved us."
Which will result in us wanting to bring friends and other people to come to know God's love even more, because we love God and we love people and we want people to get to know God too. :)

Well, result in me wanting to evangelise even more anyway. :)

Didn't end there though.
As i reflect about the past 4 weeks in CC meeting, i felt that i've done so little.
And once again i keep thinking, what if God tells me,
"You wicked and lazy servant ! "
Then i started to tear when i went toilet with Calean and Sherlyn.
Thank God for them, who encouraged me and made me feel better. :)
However i don't deny still feeling inadequate.

I NEED TO GET A BREAKTHROUGH FROM FEAR ! >:(
Stupid fear, go away lah.
Where God's love is, there is no fear.
For God's perfect love drives out fear. :)
I will conquer this stupid fear,
that's why i said the prayer for God to haunt us next week.

God, please don't spare me !!
Thank you for letting Carolyn be online when i got home ! :)
I invited her for CG since she can't come for service,
AND SHE AGREED TO COME ! :D :D

Okay, i stop blogging already.
Bathe then QT then sleep.
Tomorrow is a pure study day ! :)

100% effort next week !
God, don't spare me and FAT chance satan,
i'm not letting you use your stupid weapon of putting fear in me. ;)

2007-07-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

HAHA ! ;D

cm: Hello MIMI ! HAHA, i know ! :D And do tagg more often okay ? Hope i can see you more often. :)

inggrid: INGGRID ! i haven't seen your tag for ages, lol. I haven't watch it fully ! But i will soon, ehehehe. :D But they very mean to her at first lah ! HAHA ! And thanks so much for your postcard, i was very very touched by what you wrote, MatsuJun Fangirl ! :D

joanne*: Haha, okay ! Let's make it before my prelims then can de-stress also. :D HAHA, you want to go to Marina Square one or Central's one ? Ooh, and i heard Central has good Ramen. ;)
And we haven't ate our Ben & Jerry's !

Tags replied !

My previous post was saved as drafts till today when i finally completed it and posted it (i died typing it on monday night, LOL).

Faith level has been quite constant these two days. :)
I will never let go of God's mighty hand, so FAT hopes satan.
Puiwah, thanks for the verse, it helped a lot !

I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand
Isaiah 41: 9b-10 :)

Anyway, as usual on a wednesday, i'd be studying for tomorrow's biology test,
"During inspiration/inhalation, the external intercostal muscles contracts while the internal intercostal muscles relax. This causes the ribs to be brought upwards and outwards, which increases thoracic cavity..."
AHH, i hate Respiration. >:\

Tomorrow's test are on my worst bio topics,
Respiration, Homeostasis and Excretion.
Taking a break now, lol.
After my break i'll be doing TYS.
& i haven't prepare finish my teaching. D:

Shepherding my sheep tomorrow at last after so many failed attempts ! :)

2007-07-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

Fluctuating faith, that's what i'm having in my spiritual life. However, i will choose to be faithful for i'm serving a faithful God. :)

Seriously, there is one person (?) in this world who i really really really hate.
He sucks to the max and he's horribly disgusting and scheming.
His name is stupid satan. >:(

Yesterday, i was feeling horribly inadequate .
I felt that i'm not worthy enough, not good enough to be serving God. And on top of that, my academics are so lousy that, forget about being a doctor, i don't even know if i can get to JC.

I mean look at me, i'm in this ministry for 1 year plus already,
and i've only got one sheep,
i have only brought one person to Christ,
and i was harbouring more of such negative thoughts.

I was listening to my Banirra (Vanilla = iPod) as i was comparing myself to various people in church, and getting super depressed.
Till suddenly I randomly listen to the song Mighty To Save.

"Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever, author of Salvation
He rose & conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave "

And so i realised, i don't know how,
but i realised that i have been entertaining thoughts which stupid satan have been planting in my head, as i listen to the chorus of this beautiful song.

And i become conscious that hey, that's right.
My God is mighty to save & He conquered the grave !
And me being believer, have the Jesus and the Holy Spirit within me , which means, if Jesus can and had conquered death,
how can i not conquer that stupid trend of stagnancy in my unit ?
How can i not conquer math in my academics ?
How can i not conquer that fear before evaxing ?

How can i ?
I have my God with me,
and He's mighty to save. :)
Indeed, Holy Spirit is not passive. :)

WAM night's extended Praise & Worship was great and all. But i was not able to feel God's presence very strongly even though i know that He was there.
Which gets me almost depressed, but i continued to worship God just the same.

Then someone from the Adult's group (i think) shared that : God would love to tell you what He thinks about you .
Then i keep thinking,
What if God tells me: " You wicked & lazy servant !"
and not "Well done, my good & faithful servant. "(i'm sure everyone in God's family wants to hear this right?) ?
What if God actually doesn't love me and thinks i'm a bad child of his ?
And all other random bad thoughts.

After that, there was a time for you to go to any of the leaders to pray for you, and i went after much contemplating since 80% of the people in WAM went to ask to be prayed for.
Honestly i wasn't able to really hear what the leader prayed for me, but i appreciate it just the same, and i felt a bit better, but i wasn't able to go back to the heart of worshiping God.

The whole song of Beautiful Saviour, i was asking God questions.
"How long more till i can feel the overflow of Your presence ? "
"How long more till CC breaks 37 ? "
"How long more till i have more sheeps ? "
"How long more till i rise to a CL (i seriously think it's WAH to be a leader in church)? "

Then at the bridge of the song (Jesus, i love you; Jesus I love you..)
i suddenly remember Daniel telling us that if we're not going to fulfil CG08 in our schools , Central C shall quit and cease to exist and we shall quit this race.
I was super scared, cause i don't want to leave God.
Nor do i want to leave Saint Marg's as it is.
Cause I have really really seriously grown to LOVE God !!

And i told God,
No, enough of all this faithlessness, God i'll hold on and be faithful, for i know You're a faithful God who loves and never shortchanges His people.
I will continue to sing Your song and i know that You hear my every prayer, my every cry.
You hear me, Lord when i call to you in prayer. :)

Although my faith is not sky-high, but definitely higher. :)
I WILL CONTINUE TO BE FAITHFUL !!
BREAKTHROUGH 37 !!

the storms may come, i'm holding on to the Rock i cling

2007-07-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

joanne*: JOANNE ! :D When you free ? Then i treat you to your Ice Cream from Azabu Sabo. :D Haha, okay okay, i'll update more often next time. :) I'll see you tomorrow ! :D

puiiwah: Haha, i know ! & Toma is such cuteness ! :P

Sherman: Haha, i reply on your blog already. :D

sharlene!: HELLO SHARLENE ! i never receive your tag before ! HAHA :D I'll see you tomorrow ! :)

abigail: Awww, thanks abigail ! :) I'm better already !

All tags replied ! :)

Lol, ~~Mila~~ ミソ一 (Mirii, according to Rachel who gave me a japanese name with weird meaning, haha) is suffering from an on/off stress induced illness called IBC .

That's what the doctor says and therefore, i was absent from school on tuesday and wednesday. :D
Slept the whole day on tuesday, and on wednesday i went out to study in the afternoon (was sick in the morning, well, it's on/off ! ).

Haha, anyway, i'm better now.
Stomach aches and headaches are much milder and not so frequent. :)
But i'm not allowed to eat milk and milk products and oily food = no ice cream, Mos milk tea and vanilla milkshake ! :(

CG at Esplanade is totally funn & funny today. :)
Then after CG, Hana and i went to eat and after eating we went back to Esplanade to look at the NDP rehearsal at the roof top.
And it's so weird, HAHA, cause 99% of the people there are couples, lol.

Praise God, He answered my prayers,
Hannah (Swee) is coming for service tomorrow !! :D
I haven't seen her is a loooonnggg time.
& i do miss her, and hosanna a lot.

Wooooh, God is Great !

I am thinking of watching 花ざかりの君たちへ (Hanazakari no Kimitachi e) today, ohmygosh, thanks Stacey for burning for me. :D
Burn for me the subsequent episodes okay ? HEH.
But then thanks for coming online, i'm going crazy on http://community.livejournal.com/ikemen_paradise/ and http://community.livejournal.com/ikuta_toma/. :P
EHEHEHE.

I can't stand this photo, AHHHHHH.
And this is what i found on Wikipedia- "Toma and Oguri Shun had to kiss 12 times for the drama Hanazakari no Kimitachi e, Oguri said that Toma's lips were very soft and it was actually the first time he encountered such lips."
HAHAHAHAHA, i can't wait to watch the drama itself, but i need to sleep soon.
I think i'll skim it through tonight.

AHHH, Toma is so adorable, and another Japanese eye-candy,
he's not cute but handsome, Shirota Yuu, who acts as Sano's high jump opponent.
Anyway, Hana Kimi (jap) has proven that Oguri does not suit black wispy hair, lol.
He looks best in Hana Yori Dango 2. :)

Oh, and i'm going to see Choonmin tomorrow as well ! :D

Anyway, it just dawned on me just now during CG, that sometimes in the middle of doing something, and suddenly you think about God when you never think of God before you convert, it is actually the Holy Spirit planting that thought about God in your mind.
= Holy Spirit is not passive in us, He draws us back to God when God is not on our mind which again, = God initiates Spiritual thirst. :)

And also, don't just read the bible, cause when you do,
it is like running water going through a pipe.
But meditate on the Word, if you read a lot in one day, then select verses and meditate on it, absorb this living water like a sponge. :)

Thanks Puiwah, great teaching ! :D
Okay, i better go off.

Thirst for spiritual thirst. ;)

2007-07-05T20:57:00.000+08:00

Reply to taggs:

joanne*: Haha, hello birthday girl ! :D Haha, when we go for foodhunts, I shall treat you to Japanese Hokkaido ice cream as i've said ! And if you want, i can bake again, or we can all bake together, that'll be super funn ! :D But then, donno whose house can we go to, my house is very dirty and very weird cause got random people. :\ Awww, that's so sweet, but i wouldn't want you to kena stonified, lol. Let's go on one foodhunt soon, then i can treat you to your ice cream. :D

choonmin: Hello Choonmin ! :D I never see you again after that week ! :( Hope i get to see you soon, then we can talk about japanese eye-candies, HAHA. Yamapi's best friend is cuteness ! :P

Shiyou: Haha, yeahh ! and tomorrow i'll see you, after so long ! :D

jx: Haha, okay ! linked !

Amanda: Haha, i know ! And she cause us to get into trouble with lao shi okay, haha. Anyway, remember next week, Paul Frank wallet hunt, lol. :)

Calean: Awwww, let's eat dinner together more often ! :D Haha ! okay, will be awaiting your photos and thanks ! see you tomorrow ! :)

mel: Haha, okay & thanks in advance ! :)

Done with the tags ! :)
I'll be back to blog soon, i shall go prepare something for holy comm tomorrow,
& i need to go write invites for I.F. for my juniors. :D

I shall book their saturdays in advance, ahahahaha. :P

2007-07-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

I'm posting this random post while studying bio halfway, haha.

"Glycerol being soluble, diffuses into the epithelium of the villi. However, the insoluble fatty acids will react with bile salts to form soluble soaps, which will then diffuse into the epithelium of the villi. In the epithelium, the glycerol recombines with the soluble soaps to form minute fat globules which will be absorbed by the lymphatic capillary."
Absoption of fats, nutrition in mammals. :\

Aiyah, i need a break also mah.
But then actually, i take a lot of breaks already, lol.

On a random note,
I found a new Japanese eye-candy !
TOMA IKUTA !
AHAHAHA, cuteness :P

He acted in Hana Yori Dango 2 's first episode as Oribe Junpei, the kawaii model who turns out to be an evil guy. :\
But i don't care, he's such a talent (he acted in musicals) and he's cute ! :P

And you know what ?
HANAZAKARI NO KIMITACHI E is out today as a japanese drama !! :D

& Toma Ikuta is acting as Nakatsu Shuichi = 中津　秀一 ! :D
And Oguri is acting as Izumi Sano = 佐野　泉 !
cuteness !

Maki Horikita is acting as Ashiya Mizuki = 芦屋　瑞稀,
and i think she's cute. :)

AND Hannah, i hope you read this !
大樹 / Taiki Kayashima is going to be acted by jseventeen's monkey boy (Yamamoto Yusuke), HAHA, super weird please.
& Umeda (梅田) is not going to be dashing cause he's going to be acted by some old-looking guy. :\

But heck, there's Toma Ikuta, and Oguri Shun ! :D
You & i were made to worship, you & i are called to love

2007-07-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

Haha, i went to school on wednesday happy and looking forward to the day (especially after school, hehe) .
But oh, guess what happened during morning assembly ?
I got booked my the irritating discipline mistress for my hair, and she never even see my hair properly, she just glanced at my side and down went my name on the paper,
"Mila, you need a haircut.."

And the word "Great" floated to my mind. :\
Haha, i was getting super pissed off.

Then i had to go to the canteen toilet with others who are booked. There was so many of them, but she had to call me.
She went: "Milaaa, come here and get your hair cut. "
I stood and blinked at her, she went out of the toilet then back in,
and then you know what ?
She shouted at me, "WHY ARE YOU STILL STANDING THERE ? SIT DOWN AND GET YOUR HAIR CUT NOW !"

Then they snipped my fringe off, not only that, my back as well,
and she was saying, "I want it shorter, shorter.."

And so now you see Mila with a horribly short fringe.
She looks like a bowl now. HAHA. :\

What a horrible encounter.

Let me describe to you another encounter, a good one this time. :)

My mother was already here in Singapore, and she looked through my report book.
And i got very depressed about my grades.
She didn't reprimand me or scold me or whatever, but i was just getting very scared, depressed and insecure about my grades.

And so, i went to God, i wrote to Him, all my feelings and fear and insecurities.
As i did, i started crying.
I know that all that i've done in the holidays is not in vain, is never in vain for i'm serving a living faithful God, i know that He'll never shortchange His people.
But i was so scared that i'll get some super high points for O' levels,
then i cannot go anywhere, i cannot fulfil my ambition.

I just needed assurance, i know God is there, faithful and never shortchanging but i needed assurance.

And you know what or not ?
Indeed, God is a God who never slumbers, but One who is always keeping watch on each and every single one of His children. :)

One verse, and i cried yet again, but out of touch and thanksgiving,
for He heard my prayer and my cry and it's like 1 am, 2 am.
He gave me this one verse, He just made me open my bible and it was on that page,
this verse,

"Why are you downcast, O my soul ?
Why so disturbed within me ?
Put your hope in God,
for yet i will praise You,
my Saviour and my God."
Psalms 42:5 <3

You may say it's coincidence,
i say it's God's work.

Don't doubt God anymore, He's real.
Christianity is not a religion, it's a relationship with God.
For is it you who reached up to God as in a religion ?
No, it's God who reached down to you.

You ask, "When did God ever did that ?"
When He sent Jesus to die for you.

And stop dating the church, realise the importance of the church.
For the church is the body of Christ, when you date the church,
it's equivalent to saying to Jesus, "I accept You but i reject Your body."

Stop thinking so much, fall in love with the family of God ! :)
Like how i did. :)

& Mila is a happy girl because she ate bread at Cafe Cartel just now.
HAHA, Cafe Cartel's bread is the best ! :)
But God's love and God's people are waaaayyyy better . ;)

2007-06-26T23:23:00.000+08:00

Reply To Taggs :

angela: ANGELA ! i love your huggs ! Hahaha, and i linked you already ! :)

jon: Jonathan ! Stop calling me weird names ah ! Haha and yeah ! :)

puiwah: Haha, okay okay! I'm clearing the algaes now. Today's evaxing was so funny !

Shiyou: Ohno ! Don't get depressed ! Drink hot chocolate ! Chocolate makes one happy. :) and i can't wait to see you on the 7th of July ! :D :D SO EXCITING !

Abigail: ABIGAIL ! :D Hahaha, i want ice cream, let's go eat ice cream ! :D

jinqi: HAHAHA, YAAAA !! We need to stop talking about this and really do the baking ! Hahaha, and i really never talk to you for very long already ! :(

joanne*: Awww, you say one ah ? :D Haha, I know ! Like sotong balls and milk tea, lol. Okay, when can we go ? Haha. Do you like ice cream ? i know where sells the best Japanese Ice Cream ! :D

Amanda: Haha, you heard me partner ! :D Shopping at Marina is truckloads of funn and i bet it's going to be even better at VivoCity ! :D

YUXIN!: HELLO YUXIN ! :D I'll see you tomorrow to plan for MCG ! I am very excited, Hahaha !

Done with the tags. :)

Haha, i didn't manage to edit the post in time before my mother and brother fly over.
Therefore, i went to stay with them in the hotel which cheated my feelings caused they said there was wireless connection but in the end don't have. -_-

But i like YMCA hotel !
They serve better breakfast than Phoenix Hotel although the cafe in Phoenix Hotel was more grand.
Anyway, my mum had to move hotel due to the overwhelming influx of tourists to Singapore and their booking of rooms in the hotel. :\

Oh oh, and my mum finally got me my iPod. :)
It's Nano black and i ironically named it Vanilla Pod, HAHAH.
Eh, i'm not being wu liao, but iTunes told me to name it okay, HAHAHA.
But think of it, Vanilla Pods are black in color, only the Vanilla flower is white.
Okay, i'm being -_-.

And i wanted to get Nano(Red) but it's only available online and only payable by credit card. :(
But it's okay !
I love my Vanilla Pod, HAHA. ;D

Oh and Apple gave me a free iPod adapter and a $56 voucher on iPod accessories.
i got iPod socks and a nice Nano holder cause the other stuff are redundant.
i don't need it anyway.

I can enjoy all my songs now !
Anytime, anywhere !
Do you know how much joy it gives to a music lover like me (who is also a music idiot) ?
HAHA, i'm a music idiot cause i can't even read notes nor can i play any instrument. :\

And i will, edit the camp post !
But not yet, HAHA, i haven't get the camp photos !
& it will take to long now and i'm in need of sleep.
2nd day of school and i'm dying already.

Today's evaxing was so funny, Haha.
We see a sec one, we INPROMPTU wrote out a survey form on the spot !!
HAHAHA.

Tomorrow is an exciting and packed day, i'm looking forward to it except for the waking up and the chemistry and biology practicals. :\

i'm off to hit the sack now ! G'night :)

2007-06-14T21:54:00.001+08:00

First Frontier- An Emerging Seed Generation :)
i'll be back to edit this post, i'm going to hit the sack, LOL.

2007-06-14T21:24:00.000+08:00

Back from First Frontier camp ! :)
I'll be blogging about camp in the next post.
Reply to long overdue-d taggs first !

capt john: I know ! that's why we must go to the zoo again and go crazy over the otter again ! HAHA, and laugh at the baboon. :P

cheryl: Haha, yah ! after quite long..heh.

samuel: Haha added already ! but i haven't asked yet, lol. always forget. and With heart & voice is how nice lah ! i have smss's recording. and you play same instrument as my shepherd !

Shiyou: Shiyou ! :) i miss you too ! i haven't visited your blog for quite some time.. ! and this song is seriously beautiful lah. Oh and how's winter in Aussie ? :D

Speaking of beautiful songs, i have a lot more to share ! :D

chantal: Haha, changed already ! sorry !

cosina: Hahaha, Johnny Depp is better than Orlando Bloom, i don't care. :P

Chynaa: Chyna ! i always see you around in town, lol. :D Hahaha, and i added you ! Oh and i want to invite you to my church. :P and and, who's that friend you have in my church ?

calean: Hello Calean ! i had a great time with you and all the other nanyang girls in camp ! we must fellowship even more okay ? :D

Amanda: Haha, yoyo partner ! this is so pretty right ? :) and let's go for more shopping sessions in Marina ! :D

Euphoria: Euphoria ! :D i haven't seen you and the others in ages lah ! and seriously, i miss you girls a lot !

tracee: Tracee ! you always conveniently ignore me okay ! HAHA. anyway, thanks ! :) i am very encouraged ! :)

Yeah, i'm done with the taggs. :)

2007-06-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

Never once, did a Youth district has its own service.
I bet you think it was impossible.
But hey, Central has done it. :)

This means that you can do it too !

And Central Service has fanned up a Holy discontentment within me.
I didn't realise till i started thinking through things on the way home.
Especially when the bus pass Saint Margaret's.
How can one be contented with a pathetic 9 people CG with half the people not coming every week?!
I AM VERY DISCONTENTED SO DON'T MIND MY WORDS.
but i mean it.

Questions.
Why, is it that half the people in the world are wasting their lives away?
Why is it that half the people in the world is taking a route of self-destruction?
Why is it that half the people in the world haven't heard of the First coming of Jesus?
Why is it that half the people in the world are living life without any element of God in their life?
Why is it that half the people in the world are living hell on earth?
Why is it that half the people are finding comfort in worldly possesions?

Because we haven't spoken Jesus's story to them.
During dinner with Hannah, Sandy, Hannah Cheang, Jinqi and Claire just now,
Jinqi shared a quote from Mission Conference.
"Most of us are talking about the Second coming of Jesus, but half the world haven't even heard about the First coming.."

How can it remain like this?
We need to be more gung-ho in sharing Jesus's story!

Central A !!
Remember our meeting in the beginning of the year?
We need to be FEARLESS.

2007-05-29T22:26:00.000+08:00

To The Ends Of The Earth :)
Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all You are

And I would give the world to tell Your story
Cause I know that You've called me
I know that You've called me
I've lost myself for good within Your promise
I won't hide it, I won't hide it

Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go to the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For You alone are the Son of God
And all the world will see
That You're God, You're God

Aren't they such beautiful lyrics?
I absolutely love them. :)

Chinese O' Levels are over !! :D
and it's badly done, i refuse to comment on the paper.
i'm prepared to retake.
actually, i'm already bent on retaking, haha!

Anyway, Mila feels very trusted! :)
cause i'm given the chance to serve in Sound for Central's service this friday,
and Praise & Worship 4 for camp,
although i know i'm not very good in my skills.
but i'm still learning !!

More Sound practices tomorrow and thursday (for Central Service). :D
equals, more things to learn and familiarise myself with. :)

Care Group today had not much agenda,
and so we went to Hannah's house to watch tv.
HAHA!
We Youtubed and watched this show, 天堂来的孩子
it's very nice! but very sad also.
and the little boy is 100% adorable lah!
Haha!

My sheep is not replying me. :(
and time is running out for registration of camp!

2007-05-26T00:02:00.000+08:00

I just changed my blogskin !! (:
don't you just love this pretty skin based on such beautiful lyrics of such a beautiful song?
HAHA, i'm going to post the lyrics the next time i blog.

shopping with Amanda is truckloads of funn!
Next Stop: Bugis
Next next stop: VivoCity :D
All after Chinese O' levels, and we shall drag more people along!

today, i bought a pair of Mary-Janes!
it was $70+, but it was on sale till $36 !!
HAHA, so worth it. ;P

I wanna get to Kino too, to get my book-
The Constant Gardener !
and HopeResource doesn't have Chris Tomlin's See The Morning.
i've yet bought it, i think i'll stop by Trumpet Praise tomorrow. :)

SERVICE ~~TOMORROW~~ LATER !!
i'll be serving in Sound but still, anyone bored on a saturday afternoon?
i can take you to a really funn place. ;D

God, i pray by faith, 18.
and for my sheep to be compelled to come for camp !!

2007-05-24T18:39:00.000+08:00

Watashiwa ni-du ganbatte !!
Mid-Years was a big disaster.
but i refuse to give up my dream of getting into a prestigious JC.
and i refuse to give up my ambition.

if i were to give up, who'd be happy?
stupid irritating satan the sadistic failure.

of course, i don't deny that i'm FAR from my target.
but so?
i'm not going to give up! :)
i'm going to set my math right.
and as i've said, the fact that God gave me this target and ambition,
shows that He believes that i can do it.

no, i'm not denying reality.
i'm having faith. :)

and i'm going to put in effort.
June will be a month of intensive content-based studying for content subjects,
like bio, chem, geograhy and history,
to familiarise myself with the contents.
as well as a month of intensive math practising,
to strenghten my strong-as-cotton foundation for math. :)

as for english, i'm going to continue reading and reading.
AHAHA, HURRAY !!
Constant Gardener, you're the next book, lol.

and June will be CAMP MONTH !!!
i'm very excited for camp !! HAHA.

anyway, today was a good day! :)
i had a good talk with my sheep today during pure humans.
thank You, God!
and i really really pray, that You'd compel her to come for camp.
my persuading won't be enough, You need to work something in her heart, God.
One must never miss camp!
for camp is where one'll really meet God, experience God, fellowship with God's people,
and GROW, together as a church. :)

besides, this camp is one which determines the direction of where the whole Youth ministry is heading to.
so exciting !! :D

and sorry for being random,
but i love this song :

"i'll stand here, lost in Your love
and i will worship, forevermore
i'll stand here, ever amazed
and i will worship forevermore.."

i listen to it everday after QT. HAHA. ;D
and i love Music Of The Night from Phantom of the Operah okay.

anyway,
i started listening to the Tchaikovsky songs Jing Er gave me.
Nutcracker, Sleeping Beauty and Swan Lake. <3
AHH, music is such a beautiful gift from God.

and i want to learn how to play music- flute and guitar. ;)
but first, i'll need finances.
ohwells.

and and and, one day i want to be able to say:
"I'm going to the Ballet, the Nightcraker's on tonight.."
HAHA.
ballet is how elegant, pretty and graceful lah!
if only i didn't quit ballet in primary school, i'd be on pointe by now! :(

okay, i think i'm going to take a shower, then plan my June INTENSIVE studying. :)

Breakfast at KAP tomorrow then going late for cross country, lol.
AND THERE IS CG TOMORROW. :D
then there is Calvin + Desmond's birthday party, HAHA.

Chinese O' Levels in in 3 days time, not counting today.
and Chinese intensive is driving me nuts.
thank God, today's the last day of Chinese intensive!
but there's still intensive self studying in the weekend.
if only i can bu yi er fei before Chinese O' levels!
haha, who says i don't know any cheng yus?
er qie, wo ai Ye su ai de ai bu shi shou, ai wu ji wu okay!
lol, i think people will say wo zai dui niu tan qin.

but it's okay!
Ye su zhi dao jiu xing le. :)

2007-05-20T01:08:00.000+08:00

Thank you Hosanna, once again for your muffin !! (:
and Thank you, Inggrid for the cookies !!! (:
the blessings i got this week, made me felt so loved by my friends.
wow, now i know how winnie felt last week.
Indeed, God really know my needs. (:

i haven't been blogging, haha.
i shall start blogging more regularly,
even though it'll be even more crazy in the next week,
Chinese Intensive till 5 everyday, getting back papers and report book. D:
the last week was a torture, and i have yet finished half of my Mt Everest of chinese hw.
3 full paper 2, 2 zuo ye, 1 zuo wen, 1 ying yong wen.
crazy hua hu die really gives hw like breathing.

but, i still want to blog,
there are a lot of thoughts which i have and i do want to blog it down.
cause when i type, it gets me thinking and i do get conclusions and/or revelations. :)
revelations and conclusions comes during out-loud talks to God as well. :)
yes, i talk out loud in my room.
haha, don't freak out, i'm not mentally challenged.
in fact i love all these out loud talks with God, it's great to think through things with God!
it brings you to a Godly/biblical conclusion or revelation.

as promised, How Can I Keep From Singing lyrics. :)
i seriously love Christian Comtemporary and Chris Tomlin, haha.

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though the storms may come
I'm holding on
To the rock I cling

Chorus:
How can I keep from singing Your praise?
How can I ever say enough?
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I'm loved by the King
And it makes my heart wanna sing :)

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Saviour lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sinf the songs You give

I can sing in the troubles times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And I fall down again

I can sing cause You pick me up
Sing cause You're there
Sing cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer

I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
I can sing with the angels
And the Saints around the throne

& presenting you another Christian Comteporary song by Chris Tomlin :
Overflow :)

Here I bring my stains and crowns
Gentle river wash me now
Your love is deeper than I know
Your ways higher than I can go
Lead me in Your holiness
I will follow I confess
Glory is the song I sing
You life is living me

And where would I be?
Without You, without You?
Where would I be?
Without You?

I will bow before the Cross
Cherish my Redeemer's cost
There is nothing I can do
But only stand amazed by You

Immersing You with everyday
Wrapped up in Your arms of grace
Nothing more You're all I need
Your life is living me

And where would I be?
Without You, without You?
Where would I be?
Without You?

Like a waterfall
You fill my heart and overflow
Like a candle flame
You light my way and lead me as I go

Spirit overflow
Let me overflow

I'm done!
and i realise during AEP yesterday,
that music is seriously a beautiful gift from God.
as i listen to the band, especially in the second piece,
i felt so joyful, as if I can almost feel God's presence, haha!

Music, is a beautiful gift from God. :)

i'm going to change my blogskin really soon!
have already found it, and it's super nice,
based on a super nice song with super beautiful lyrics, HAHA. :D

& Gosh, Sandy dedicated a post to me on her blog. :)
another blessing, made me feel so loved.
<3 i love you, Sandy!
HAHA.

yesterday's chocolate chip cookies was a success!
i gave them to sandy and abigail as i owe them birthday presents.
and wow, they said it was like subway's cookies.
i'm very encouraged, haha!
OH, plus shirley tried them too. :)
i think i'll bake them for hosanna & my classmates soon. :)
and, i'll bake for you all too, Central A and other churchies.
but you've got to give me time! :P

OH, exactly 8 days to Chinese O levels.
i dread you, 28th May, lol

"I'd give the world to tell Your story, cause i knew that You've called me"
yes, i'm called to serve, and i'm proud of it :)
and i'm called to influence in this crazy fallen world

2007-05-18T21:33:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOSANNA !! (late by one day)
haha, whether you'll read this or not, i hope you enjoyed your birthday.
we may not exactly be friends now but still, i want to wish you a happy birthday anyway. :)
and sorry about the cookies being chao tah, hope you'll enjoy the chocolates!
and thank you for your muffin today hosanna !!!
it really made my day! :D

and if i have to be really honest, i really miss talking to you.
i miss you, actually!
okay, sorry for being mushy, lol.

and,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TESSA !!
i realised, i never took any photo with you!
anyway, sorry for the rather small gift tessa!
and for not being able to go have dinner with you and the others.
hope you enjoyed your day today though. :)
and i loved your flute playing !!
in fact, i really really love the band today, especially the second piece. :)

2007-05-10T14:43:00.000+08:00

AHH, Midyears are over! :)
but midyears are really really screwed. :(
(and i seriously love the above picture, so pretty! )

HOWEVER, i learnt from this year's midyears :
1. One must not study last minute.
2. Time management is crucial.
3. One must study ALL the parts of each chapter.

and those are all the reasons why i screwed midyears big time.
Thank You, God for letting me learn my lesson in midyears and not prelims/actual Os. :)

let me do a short evaluation of each paper:

English Paper 1- Time Management is a big issue. i spent too much time on the letter and my narrative ended up too short. :( i wrote on a retarded issue also. the title was choices and i wrote about the battle in your mind before you make a decision. -_-

English Paper 2- The compre was alright but the summary was a big mess.

Social Studies- God was super kind to me, somehow i just had the urge to study housing the night before after QT. and so i did, and it came out. :) i knew what to write but because of time constraints, i didn't finish it and my answers has no organisation either. i spent too much time on the stupid SBQs.

Chinese Paper 1- i can't remember much, but i remember that my letter was a total -_-?!?!

Chinese Paper 2- not finished, i spent too much time on one of the li jie wen da and forgot there's another one at the back. :(

Emath Paper 1- TO A MATH IDIOT LIKE ME, it was a super hard paper! :( and i was so sleepy, i kept wanting to fall asleep.

Geography Paper 2- SIGH, this is the one paper which makes me want to cry. ALL the chapters that i studied never came out. even if it came out, the parts of the chapter which i haven't studied was the one which came out. and so, i can't do the paper at all. :( what made me feel the worst is that, i had put in much more effort to study geography than in the past, and yet, i'm still going to fail. :(

Chemistry Paper 2- One whole compulsory question on Petroleum and Fuels just had to come out. :( but still i thought it wasn't as bad, but yesterday mrs lim told us that our papers wer poorly done. sighh~

Chemistry Paper 1- this was quite alright. but i realised that number 1, i wrong already. :(

Emath Paper 2- same as emath paper 1. :(

History Elective- I AM THE SUAYEST PERSON ALIVE. China did came out, but what came out had to be chapter 3 which i did not study properly. i studied chapter 9 of China. and so i did war in Europe which i briefly remember here and there. AHH. :(

Principles Of Accounts Paper 2- it was the consequence of my choice, i did not prepare for it till the day before, and so i expected myself to fail. and i think that will happen.

Geography Paper 1- it was much more well-done compared to paper 2! :)

Biology Paper 2- Another paper which made me want to cry. my worst fear came true, it was like in geography. 80% of the questions are on chapters which either i haven't complete studying or it's part of the chapter which i haven't studied, like the stupid hepatic vein and hepatic portal vein. :(

Biology Paper 1- this is better done than paper 2, but i don't think it's well done at all.

Principles of Accounts Paper 1- Today's paper! i kinda studied for it, and it was quite alright, i hope i can at least pass.

and i only have myself to blame for not starting to study earlier for every subject.
that's why i was not able to finish studying, and i really thank God that i learnt my lesson in midyears and not Prelims or actual Os.

and i may be very far from my goal and ambition.
but no, i'm not going to settle for mediocracy.
i'm still striving for my high goal.
i am not going to make you happy, you stupid satan, so don't even think about it.
i am going to make full use of June Holidays to study and get myself familiar with the contents of each subject.
GO AWAY, SATAN AND DON'T DISTRUPT MY PLANS.
stop putting depreciating thoughts of myself in my head for it's not going to work.

For, my God believes in me and i trust Him.
"My confidence, my assurance, rests in Your unchanging word.." :)

Oh and i seriously fell in love with Instrumental Music, HAHA.
Symphony 92.4 is the best radio station ever!
but if there's a Christian Radio Station, i think that will be even better!
the album, Free by David Garett which Mell shared to me was so good okay,
i especially love Serenade, Csardas and Eliza's song.

And Jing Er gave me quite a lot of Instrumentals as well, i haven't listened to it all,
but the Bond album was really good.
especially the familiar Explosive, Midnight Garden and Lullaby.

i'm going to buy Chris Tomlin's See The Morning this week. :D
and next cd i'm eyeing is Hillsong's newest All Of The Above, HAHA.

other than cds, i'm eyeing books:
Mitch Albom's For One More Day and Five People You Meet In Heaven
John Le Carre's The Constant Gardener

i watched the movie for Constant Gardener in Val's house last year, the movie was super good, although the beginning was a bit ........... but it really opened up my eyes to the cruelty and selfishness to the world.
it was also the last straw which made me to decide on my ambition.
(if you know me since last year, you might know that i used to have a lot of ambitions)

on saturday i was looking up on stuffs, and this world is seriously super sad, harsh and mean okay.
and i cannot stand it:

Today, over 11 million children under the age of 15 living in sub-Saharan Africa have been robbed of one or both parents by HIV/AIDS. Seven years from now, the number is expected to have grown to 20 million. At that point, anywhere from 15 per cent to over 25 per cent of the children in a dozen sub-Saharan African countries will be orphans – the vast majority of them will have been orphaned by HIV/AIDS. There are nearly three million children living with HIV/AIDS today, nearly all of them in poor countries in Africa and elsewhere. Each year over 700,000 more children are infected with HIV. Roughly half die before the age of two, and most of the rest die before reaching school age.

HIV/AIDS is redefining the meaning of childhood for millions around the world, depriving them of their basic human rights such as the care and love of their parents, an education, future opportunities, and protection against exploitation and abuse.

Why?
Why are innocent children becoming orphans and infected with AIDS/HIV?
it's all because of the selfishness of the world, the people in the world.
and what if what happened in The Constant Gardener is already happening in reality today ?? >:(

and what's happening in the urban world?
more and more people are getting involved in drugs and/or pre-marital sex, risking the possiblities of them getting HIV/AIDS.
aren't there enough people who need help in the world?
why are people making themselves needed to be helped as well?

and no, do not blame God for the pandemic of HIV/AIDS in the world.
He did not create this stupid virus.
you may be asking, if God is real then why doesn't He do something about it?
then perhaps ask yourself, why aren't you doing something about it?

HAH, i learnt this from Rick Warren, he's a great great pastor. :)

Then you may ask, why did God allowed it then?
God allowed bad things in the world to happen, so that better things can happen out of it.
like how he allowed Jesus to be crucified, so that sinners can be saved. :)
it's wonderful how God works.

similarly, that's why God allowed me to screw my midyears,
not cause he wants me to screw them, but so that i can learn from it and not make the same mistakes in prelims and Os.

God knows best, but then He definitely did not create all these bad things.
the bad things happening in the world, are the consequences of us, sinners.
we all have responsibility in all that's happening in the world.
we are attributed for all these bad things, for we make up the world.

Okay, i'm getting very hungry.
i think i'll stop here, and i finally finished reading In the Country Of Men today.
i'm going to read Tuesdays with Morrie now!
and EAT, AHAHA. :P

2007-04-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

Prayers answered:
Housing to come out for SS papers. :)
My sheep to be a little more responsive in this exam period when we can lean on God. :)
Joyful attitude when i spend time with my father. :)

indeed, God is good.
Where would I be, without You?

i was dreading to meet my father today, like always.
i don't really enjoy meetings with my father cause he asks a lot of questions and because of some language barrier, i am not able to answer and i'll get really irritated.
and sometimes his questions are just so -_-
it doesn't help that i was never close to him since young.
so it's very awkward, weird.
he wasn't ever at home since i was young, and i do feel bitterness towards him as my mum has to shoulder everything in the family.
and so, i have been showing my bitterness with past meetings with him and when he comes over to visit my mum, brother and i.
even when my mum tells me so many times to not do that.
and i can't stand it that my mum always tells me, my father actually loves me and my brother a lot.
in fact, my mum asking me to treat him with respect always make me feel even more bitter.
i would ask myself, why should i show him respect?
he was never at home, and i would always fight the urge to ask my mum ,
"why do you still hold him in such a high respect?
why do you have to do what he asks you to do?
why is it that you have to shoulder everything in the family and yet he's still having the 'highest' position in the family?"

but i know that would probably cause more problems in this family which have so many loopholes.
like why is it that my father is never at home?
why is it that my parents never celebrated their anniversary?
they're not divorced, still on talking terms, but why is it that they never do what normal parents do together?

my questions were almost answered when once my mum wants to tell me her story.
but at that time, i was almost too afraid to know.
so i resisted, and now my question will be unanswered..
ohwells, i'll come to know it when the timing is right.

yesterday i prayed that i will not have any negative attitudes towards my father during our meeting today.
cause i know that that wouldn't make my mum happy.
and i do want to improve things in the family and i do pray that one day Jesus will be the centre of my family.
especially for my mum, i think she needs a lot of support, one to help her lift her burdens.

i prayed that i won't get irritated or pissed.
and although i felt a bit weird and awkward just now, i don't actually feel any bitterness.
in fact i felt quite joyful! :D
and as i was eating lunch, although we were quite silent, (i think it's) God suddenly flicked a lightbulb in my brain.
i had a random thought:
If my mum can forgive him, i should be able to do so too!
besides my mum must have gone through much more hurt than me,
how can i not be able to forgive him, when my mum did?

and i thought, wow, it's true!
i had been stupidly holding grudges against my own father.

now i know, and i think i might just be able to make a difference in the family.
it's good that my brother is in a Christian community international school.
a rather prestigious one some more..haha.
but my brother is failing to know the true significance behind all those bible stories he's listening.
i will pray that he'll come to realise it soon. :)

then, WE can win over my mum and then my father over, AHAHAHAHAHA. :P

i am rather stressed for my studies though, but:
My confidence, my assurance rests in Your unchanging word

indeed! :)
and that helps alot.
OH and i came to realise to another thing.

you know, the fact that God gave me a chance to serve in sound in FOH last saturday, even though i didn't do very well, but the fact that He placed me there to serve last week shows that He believes in me that i can do it.

and similarly, the fact that he gave me the target of going NJC, and the ambition to be a missionary doctor (to be more specific, a missionary pediactrician) shows that He believes in me that i can do it! :)

i love these little revelations which always makes me feel so so so PRIVELEGED to be a Child Of God.
not that i don't feel priveleged at normal times, but when you get all this revelations and realisations, you'd feel even more priveleged to be a Child Of God! :)

songs to recommend:
How Can I Keep From Singing, Chris Tomlin (THIS IS THE BEST OKAY)
Overflow, Chris Tomlin
Voice Of Hope, Vladimir Vysotsky (what a russian name, haha)
Crazy, Youth Alive
Jesus You're My Best Friend, Hillsong

OH, i visited Trumpet Praise on friday after CG, it made me wish i have unlimited supply of money.. hahaha.
i want to buy Hillsong's latest album, Chris Tomlin's See The Morning and the 2-in-1 album, Youth Alive's newest album, and a couple of Christian books!

and a visit to Times just now made me want to buy so many books!
books which makes you realise and learn so many things.
i have a piling list of books to read, and i haven't even finish In The Country Of Men, which is rather interesting. :)

my piling list of books to read:
tuesdays with morrie, Mitch Albom
the five people you meet in heaven, Mitch Albom
for one more day, Mitch Albom
mr God, this is Anna, Fynn
a child called it, some dave guy
the lost boy, the same dave guy
and some other books by Jodi Picoult..

my problem is, i am a very slow reader..!

okay, and my plan is to make full use of tomorrow, i'm trying to wake up at 9.
then i'll go to holland V's subway and study till tuition.
and after tuition, i'll see where i can go to study again. :)

YEAH, BI SHENG! :D
GANBATTE EVERYBODY!
MAKE SCORING As FOR JESUS AS A HOBBY !!

and this is to psycho myself to love math,

i love math, i love math, i love math!!!

ahh, stupid math which is such a giant goliath.
and yesterday sandy and i saw the cutest baby we ever saw in our lives!
SUPER CUTE OKAY.
and i'm very happy cause i took picture with him, and he's my phone wallpaper now.
HAHAHA. :D

okay, i'm done.
should be back after midyears, and i'll post up the lyrics for How Can I Keep From Singing and Overflow. :)

"Like a waterfall, You fill my heart and overflow;
like a candle flame, You light my way and lead me as I go~"

2007-04-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

Reply to taggs! :D

Shiyou: HAHA, yes! indeed, Jesus would pray! let me tell you what happened, that day, during Q.T, i was asking God, God what shall i do? and God gave me a desire to just flip to the back of our Connect Devotions Journal, and i cam across a devotion which really guide me on what i should do!! :D HURRAY FOR JESUS! :) and why the random questions? HAHA, i'm staying at bt timah and doing quite alright! besides that, YES, I ENJOYED THE CHOCOLATE EGGS. :D

joshua: HAHA, okay okay!

Amanda: and hello to you back! you sitting behind me! HAHA. :) WE HAVEN'T GONE FOR ICE CREAM YET, AMANDA!! HOW CAN? HAHA.

jinqi: AMEN! HAHA, how are you, jinqi? :) and we better find a time to bake cookies!! HAHA. plan how long already but still haven't action!

puiiwah: HAHA! yeah! SAY NO TO SATAN MAN! :) hahaha, and yes please! i'll need you to help me sharpen stones for throwing to the circles theorem goliath! HAHA.

NICOLEAU: HAHAHA! ya lor! what to do he is satan what. but he is seriously irritating, hahaha. and where were you the last two weeks?? Central A misses you! :(

siyi: HAHA, i will, i will! :D

mel: YAYY! thank you! :) and we'll produce the most beautifullest sermon books for CA! ;D

sandy: INDEED sandy! you haven't tag for very long already! :) and we will not stop here! CA will have more converts! hahaha, and CA misses you all very much, sandy!

choonmin: HAHA, yes! it was the first time i heard that song, over at your house! :) ohman, i miss you choonmin!

finished! :)
syf is over, i'm freed from trainings!
but you know what?
i think i'll miss dreading for training and that straining warm-ups, especially the crunches.
and i'll miss my juniors, like carolyn, elizabeth, krystle and chyna and more..
haha.

but one thing for sure is that i know i have done my best for syf! :)
my part may have been small and minor but i have done it well and to the best of my ability.
and i know God is proud of me. :)

whatever the result might be, it is all God's plan and we have done our best! :)
and personally, i think we might have a chance of getting gold despite some of the mistakes.
cause 2 of the judges actually clapped for us but not for the next four schools..!
HURRAY FOR SAINT MARG'S MODERN DANCE! :D

okay, i have quite a lot to blog so i'll be back tomorrow. (i think, haha)

2007-04-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

MILA PALAMITA IS OFFICIALLY A SHEPHERD AND IS A VERY HAPPY GIRL. :)
that's all i wanna say today.
i have a test tomorrow to study for, undone hw to be done, unread manga as well as story books to be read, mid-years' to be studied for and all of this week's tests sucks, especially bio.
ohwells, but mila is still a happy girl. :)
BECAUSE MILA IS A SHEPHERD.
THANK YOU, GOD! :D :D

i'll be back soon. :)
05 days to SYF.
09 days to mid-years. O_O

Your joy overtakes and i can't forget about it ;D

2007-04-10T19:56:00.000+08:00

oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
from one so fair you ran away
and one more time you have to pay
the heaviness of needless shame

oh heart of mine, come back home
you've been too long out on your own
and He's been there all along
watching you down the road

so come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer, you're looking for
so come home running, just as you are

oh child of God so dearly loved
and ransomed by the Savior's blood
and called by name, "daughter" & "son"
wrapped in the robe of righteousness

COME HOME RUNNING, Chris Tomlin :)
and all i ever want to do, is to go home running into Jesus's arms,
& give him a big big hug. :)

i heard this song first from winnie's phone during CG last week,
and the words "Come Home Running",
it was exactly what i have been wanting to hear.
especially through all the spiritual dryness the past weeks.
& after knowing the full lyrics, i absolutely fall in love with this song.

it really mirrors what we are like,
time & again, we fall into sin.
our hearts wander away from God.

but God is always faithful,
He's always there, watching us; watching me,
and He's just waiting for me to come back home to His open arms.
and He understands, He loves us just the way we are;
He loves me just the way i am!

suddenly i am reminded of other Chris Tomlin's songs,

"You see the depts of my heart yet You love me the same,
You're amazing, God" -Indescribable

"and everything, You hold in Your hands,
still You make time for me, i can't understand
praise You God of earth and sky
how beautiful is Your unfailing love, unfailing love
and You never change, God You remain,
the Holy One, my unfailing love, unfailing love" -Unfailing Love

i love Chris Tomlin! HAHA.
and there are more of his songs which are really very very nice!
like "How great is our God", the lyrics are so simple, yet so true and powerful!

okay, i shall do song recommendations. :D
all by Chris Tomlin,

Come Home Running
Indescribable
Unfailing Love
Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone)
Amazing Love
Not To Us
How Great Is Our God
You Do All Things Well
Mighty Is The Power Of the Cross

GO LISTEN TO THESE SONGS! :D

and i got into a situation which i don't really know how to handle.
What Would Jesus Do?
Jesus, tell me what to do..
not a very complex situation, but i didn't expect it to be like this,
i am clueless on what is the right thing to do..
and i ran into Goliaths of math problems as well, hahah. :\

i am starting on an intensive studying programme, haha!
attempted to start today but failed...
& i need to start saving, like really start saving for church camp.
but the irritating thing is that i will have extra lessons in the june hols.
sigh, imagine, after a day in camp,
next day have to go to school and spend half the day outside camp..
KILLJOY, oh kill joy/

okay, i'm going to eat dinner then do QT. :)

2007-04-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

JESUS LOVES YOU.
JESUS LOVES ME.
JESUS LOVES. :)

I LOVE JESUS TOO.
DO YOU?

today's service was so good. :)
i met God.
He didn't say much.
He only said He loved me.
and that's enough.

i'll never forget what God told winnie to tell me.
"God longs for your presence as much as you long for His presence."

it helps a lot. :)
so remember, when you feel dry.
sometimes it's just that you're not allowing Him totally into your heart, into your life.
you're not allowing God your presence.

and what puiwah say,
the stupid retarded devil will always find ways to make you fall,
especially when you're full of faith in God.
and especially when you're well on your way in bringing a person into the Kingdom.

i woke up on Good Friday, confident and faithful that i'll meet God the next day despite the dryness.
(perhaps, it because of my gift of faith)
but while worshipping during care group,
i totally cannot focus and i cannot even get into the worship fully.
and i was so sad, i felt so disconnected from God.
stupid satan was putting stupid thoughts in my head.
i tried and tried to worship, but i felt so far, and i just started crying.
it's like why?
i was so confused, i was so faithless, i was so emo.
and take note: I AM NOT AN EMO PERSON ONE LOR.
but the thought of being so far from God made me a truly emo person.

& that's when prayers (your own as well as other's) and Faith comes into the picture.
winnie prayed for me, puiwah prayed for me.
i was still emo after that, but it helps.
and it got me thinking.
and as i think and think, my faith slowly builds up again.
then i got super pissed with satan, and i just kept reminding him of his future, AHAHA.
you're so in trouble, satan, how dare you try to separate me from Jesus?
i was so so pissed i tell you.
before i sleep, i was still telling satan, HAH, your future is in ruins!!!
HAHAHA, and before i sleep, i was faith-filled once again that i will meet God.

AND YES I DID. (though not very WAH, but i still did!)
HE TOLD ME HE LOVES ME AND I LOVE HIM TOO. <3

and not only that,
I FINALLY WITNESSED CONVERSION! :D
conversion of my own friend!
i was actually quite faithful that yinfei will convert.
(perhaps, it helps that as i've said, i have the gift of faith, and i love this gift)
but i really think that it is really the time for her to allow God to take over her life.
to take up all her burdens in life.
to love her unconditionally.
besides, i have been sharing to her about God for quite some time. :P

and she did!
i was so happy for her.
and i really hope to see her in service as well as care group in the weeks to come. :)

so all that i'm trying to say that,

A LITTLE OF FAITH COMES A LONG WAY. :) ( faith builds up)

and,
JESUS LOVES YOU AND ME. :)

yinfei took that one small step of faith in Jesus,
will you take that step too?
will you allow Jesus to love you unconditionally too?

in every season, I know You love me

2007-04-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

I AM ONE YEAR OLD SPIRITUALLY! :D
and i just want to thank God for this wonderful year.
there will be more wonderful years to come with God.
for i can never get enough of His wondrous love.
nor can i ever serve Him enough.

neither can i thank God enough.
His love is so great that he chose to go through spiritual death for us.
including you.
YES, YOU READING THIS.
He chose to die, bearing all of the world's sins,
dying as the most sinful man on earth even when he never sinned.
He died with God turning his face away from him as he was too sinful.

He can choose not to die, you know.
God had a whole legion of angels ready to save Jesus from the cross if ever He changed his mind.
but why did He still chose took the cross?

Yes, as you've heard it so much till it's a cliche.
but it's really because of LOVE.
He loves you too much to allow you to remain in sin.
He loves you so much that he'd rather go to hell for you, than go to heaven without you.

He chose humility over glory.
Earth over Heaven.
He chose you.

will you choose to accept his gift of salvation then?
Jesus offers hope. :)
if you don't believe, then just come see and taste for yourself.
just look for me, email me at milliefhee@hotmail.com

MORE songs to recommend:

At The Cross, Hillsong (this is the best, i tell you)
By Your Wondrous Love, Hillsong
Always, Hillsong
Why, Natalie Nordeman (i recommended this before)

Final Distance, Utada Hikaru
Passion (after the battle), Utada Hikaru
Travelling, Utada Hikaru

I know You love me;
You tore the veil, You made a way
when You said that it is done.

2007-03-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

i haven't been able to load my blog.
it's weird, no matter what i use, firefox or internet explorer,
no matter how many times i refresh,
it just remains blank. -_-
so i can't see whatever i blogged.

ANYWAY,
i have a very meaningful song to share :)
Flavor Of Life
-by Utada Hikaru

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayonara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life, The flavor of life

tomodachi demo koibito demo nai chuukan chiten de
shuukaku no hi wo yumemiteru aoi furu-tsu
ato ippo ga fumidasenai sei de
jirettai no nan notte? baby~

arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayonara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life, the flavor of life

amai dake no sasoi monku ajike no nai doku
sonna mono ni wa kyoumi wa sosorarenai
omoitoori ni ikanai toki datte
jinsei suteta mon janai tte

doushita no? to kyuu ni kikareru to “uun. nandemo nai”
sayounara no ato ni kieru egao watashi rashikunai
sinjitai to negaeba negau hodo nandaka setsunai
“aishiteru yo” yori mo “daisuki” no hou ga kimi rashii janai?
The flavor of life

wasurekakete ita hito no omoi wo totsuzen omoidasu koro
furitsumoru yuki no shirosa wo omou to sunao ni yorokobitai yo

daiyamondo yorimo yawarakakute atatakana mirai
teni shitai yo kagiri aru jikan wo kimi to sugoshitai
“arigatou” to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunai
sayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigai
The flavor of life

TRANSLATION-
For some reason it's painful when you say "Thank You"
The unbreakable magic after "good bye" is weakly bittersweet
The Flavor of life, The Flavor of Life

Neither friends nor lovers, in uncertain terms
like an un-riped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest
because of being unable to just move one more step forward
It’s just so frustrating

For some reason it's painful when you say "Thank you"
The unbreakable magic after "good bye" is weakly bittersweet
The Flavor of Life, The Flavor of Life

Words of invitation that are simply sweet are a sensationless poison
My interest is not peaked by things like that
Life isn't something that you throw away
When things don't go your way

When I'm suddenly asked "what's wrong?" I just say "no, nothing"
The smiling face that disappears after "good bye" isn't like me
The more I wish that I want to believe, the more painful it is
It's more like you to say "I like you" than "I love you"
The Flavor of Life

I wish I could cherish the white color of the falling snow like I used to
by the time I would remember the scent of the person I’ve nearly forgotten

A future tender and warmer than a diamond
i want to grasp it, in this limited time we have, i want to live it with you
For some reason it's painful when you say "Thank you"
The unbreakable magic after "good bye" is weakly bittersweet
The Flavor of Life, The Flavor of Life

they're beatiful lyrics aren't they?
and the song, ohmygoodness, you should have heard it!
just msn me if you want the song, it's so nice!
hahaha

i have finished my emath homework. :)
except for a few questions..
aren't you proud of me?
Heymath helped but i still think it's expensive.
AND it's funny, cause they have messenger system within the programme, HAHA.
so the past two days in com lab, we've been chatting by that during math lessons. :P
but hey, it's in the Heymath programme!

2007-03-22T19:06:00.000+08:00

hello!
i am aware that i have been ignoring the tagboard and watashiwa is really sorry about that.
i'm a lazy girl. :P
i'll reply the latest (ohman, sorry i'm so lazy..) tags, starting from 11 march, now :)

puiiwah: HAHA, i will ganbatte! but i really don't think i have the chance to get into NJ. but that's still my target. :) and i'm sure you can do it! :D

joshua: ahahaha, oops, sorry i'm so outdated..and okay! i'll relink. :)

SHERLYN: HAHAHA, cut your hair short lah! then CA will be the short hair unit. haha, nearly everyone have short hair. :D i love short hair!

hosanna: HAHAHAHA, HOSANNA! that's not lee jun ki! it's kim jung hoon/john hoon! and that guy's quite cute but daniel henney is better! but just look at our johny, he's so cute okay. HAHA. OH that reminds me, i shall bring the Seducing Mr Perfect postcard tomorrow then can paste at our Korean Lane on the notice board. HAHAH. Grilled Fish soon okay? ask inggrid try also! :D

shiyou: i shall reply on your blog, hahaha. then you can save a few seconds without the need to come to my blog. okay, i'm damn whatever. HAHA. :P

okay, tags till here, hahaha.
and i shall reply my tags once every week, sorry all of you!

and i DISAGREE with mrs loong when she said that the newspaper should be the first thing you read every single day, during monday's devotion.

shouldn't it be the BIBLE?!
and i just memorised this verse, which is very applicable to this situation.
and if there's any error in the verse, please tell me then i'll re-memorise it.

"For the Word Of God is active and living. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even into dividing souls, joints and marrows. It judges the thoughts and the attitudes of the heart." Hebrews 4:12 :)

okay, i'm super tired.
i'm going to do QT, some hw then i'll sleep early tonight.
at last, i can sleep early!! :D

ANYWAY,
SOME LOVELY (some rather old) SONGS TO RECOMMEND :

Reason I Live, Planetshakers
Redeemer, Planetshakers
Running After You, Planetshakers
Open Up The Gates, Planetshakers
Who Am I, Casting Crowns
Jesus You Are My Best Friend, Hillsong
You Alone Are God, Hillsong

Sirius, KJH
Sad Song, KJH
Still Believe, KJH
Bokura Narina Shi, KJH
I'm Sorry, KJH
서약, KJH (i donno how to read the title, and i'm sure you don't too, HAHAH)
(a chao nice song with a weird title) Gei Wo De Xin Niang, KJH
Glass, KJH
(he's damn cute! :P)

I'm Coming, Rain
It's Raining, Rain
Free Way, Rain
Move On, Rain
Sad Tango, Rain

Love So Sweet, Arashi
Wish, Arashi
Planetarium, Ai Otsuka
Flavor Of Life, Utada Hikaru

Zhen Me Ban, S.H.E
Zhuan Shu Tian Shi, Tank
Dong Le, Tank
Chao Xi Huan Ni, Fahrenheit

HAHAHA, rather a lot ah.
i've been listening to these lately. :D
i'm off to do QT, good night!

You see the depths of my heart and yet, You love me the same.
i can only smile in awe of Your great, great love. :)

2007-03-15T21:23:00.000+08:00

Happy White Day! :D
(belated by one day)

awwww, i think White Day's so sweet. <3
it's like Valentine's day, just that it's the girl who give gifts to the guy.
and White Day's also Yhope's Metamorphosis! :D

i was Game Master for games (obviously, HAHA)
and i thought i didn't do a good job. :\
cause i gave unspecific wherebouts of my partner, weiting.
and so, SORRY to all those teams who found me first.
but still, thank God for this opportunity! :D

and i fell in love once again with this song on Meta's concert:
Running After You
Your Word is a light onto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest nights
and even though sometimes Your ways i cannot understand
i'll never walk away because my future's in Your Hands

i don't care what people will say
i'm running after You
i won't turn back and go their way
cause i'm running after You

don't matter what may come my way
i'm running after You
it's You i'm following today, i'm running after You :)

and How Great Is Our God
sing with me how great is our God
and all will see how great is our God :)

the first time i hear this song, it was during caregroup at choonmin's house
and choonmin and minzhen was leading worship.
haha, i don't think i'll forget that ever.
i suddenly miss them a lot during worship yesterday, haha.
and so, i started to pray for them.

after that was Steamboat CG! :D
go to Central blog and click on the link on the CA post to see the photos.
all i can say that we were all being super unglam, HAHAHA.

then sandy, nicole, puiwah and i went along to hannah's house for sleepover.
after bathing, nicole and i went on to YouTube to watch Hana Kimi, HAHA.
while sandy, puiwah and hannah hogged the laptop to..haha, i shall not say.
anyway, sandy, nicole hannah and i only slept at 6am this morning. hahaha.

ANYWAY, the Connect devotions were really good!
although i have done some of the devotions before (basically till today all that i've done, i did it before), but doing them a second time, i manage to learn more things, new things which i didn't see the first time i did them. :)

and you know, sometimes, you feel very tired and you don't feel like doing QT.
but actually, if you make effort to do it.
after QT, you'll feel chao super fulfilled, and chao joyful! :D

haha, and that's because, as said in monday's devotions, it's cause we are created to worship God, to bring enjoyment to God.
it is our purpose, and so, when we bring enjoyment to God, it is only right that we will feel fulfilled and joy, as we are fulfilling our purpose. :)
and sometimes, we feel empty cause we are not worshipping God, we are not fulfilling our purpose.
makes so much sense right? :)

and so, i love QT!
chao fulfilling and chao funn, HAHAAHA. :D

but of course, everyone have their times when they are just to tired to do QT.
or too.. aiyah, you get me.
if not then, you're not a Christian.

AHH, damn sian, school tomorrow.
have to wake up at 7.
and i haven't done my Mount Everest of hw. :(

2007-03-12T19:09:00.000+08:00

March Holidays! :D
but it's not even holidays please, i have to go back to school nearly everyday. :\

Monday:
Chinese 0800-1015
Chemistry 1030-1230
CCA 1100-1400
HAHAHA, i was damn happy to miss cca for 1+ hours.

and after that i went to Kino with Inggrid.
i wanted to start my Hana Kimi Manga collection.
got 20% discount some more!!
but guess what?
it was out of stock.
EVERY BOOK IS OUT OF STOCK!! -_-
i was damn sad okay, haha.
but in the end we found the DVD in Kino and the sale is applicable on it as well!
and so, i bought the DVD.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHA. :D
unfortunately, they only had volume 1 & 2.
but still, i got them at a much cheaper price.
YAYY!
thanks, Inggrid for your Kino privelege card! :)

Tuesday:
Chinese 0800-1015
Chemistry 1030-1230
and i donno what to do after that.

Wednesday:
CCA 0900-1200
but, i am pon-ning so that i can go for METAMORPHOSIS! :D
haha, actually i'm not needed in the morning.
but i don't want to go for CCA..my part is super minor and half the time, i'm just sitting down procrastinating.
EHH, actually, i am needed!
i have to meet at 0945 cause i'm going to help out with games.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA, so funn.
and so scary at the same time.
stop it, i have a fear to speaking in front of people i donno.
but i want to help out! :)

OH and after Metamorphosis's Concert, we will have STEAMBOAT CG!
YAYYYY, chao hao wan.
and puiwah, sandy, nicole and i are planning to stay overnight and eat.
HAHAHAHAHA, maybe not overnight to eat, but overnight! :D

Thursday:
for once, no school!
but i'm planning to meet Haley and Hweepeng for late night dinner and studying at KAP!
haha, so funn.

donno what to do in the day..but actually i have a Mount Everest of hw to do.. :(

Friday:
Chinese 0900-1200
CCA 1300-1600
then Shepherding! :D

and then it's weekends!
Service on Saturday and hw-chionging day on sunday. :\

OH and i got my haircut(at last) and i love it. :D
i love Icon by Shunji Matsuo, i'm going back to cut there again next time.
haha.

i'm typing these at the advertisements as i watch Hana Kimi.
Xiuyi the crazy yellow monkey is chao cute, my goodness.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.

OH, and Kim Jung Hoon is going to star in a new drama!

DO YOU SPOT HIM? HAHA.
and i'm not going to wait for Hana Yori Dango Episode 9 already.
i am going to start watching Hana Yori Dango 2! :D
probably not today though.
Mrs Lim the paranoid woman gave us hw and demanded it by tomorrow. -_-

good night, darling.
OH AND REMEMBER TO START ON YOUR CONNECT DEVOTIONS TODAY! :D
i think i'm going to do it now.
Hana Kimi finished 15 mins ago..haha!
i hope i can watch Desperate Housewives tonight, but that show is damn gross though..
but it's funny!

OH AND CONGRATS TO ALL WHO GOT WATER BAPTISED YESTERDAY! :D

2007-03-09T20:33:00.000+08:00

Letters From Iwo Jima
my first NC16 movie, HAHA!

and ohmygoodness, it was a damn good.
i love this movie. :)
it definitely deserve it's 4 star rating from 8 days.
Clint Eastwood is a very good director!

and i'm very lazy to blog already.
i'm going to YouTube, HAHAH.
but, i will get a start on bio TYS tonight.
oh, and my L1R5 is damn high.

i failed a lot of subjects.
BUT I PASSED MATH! :D

2007-03-06T16:39:00.000+08:00

WE WON CG MADNESS!
hahaha, i was having sound duty backstage with Hannah and i saw a familiar photo on the monitor on the stage.
and i went: "Oh-My-Goodness, WE WON, WE WON! :D
hannah started laughing and then they announced and i see CA jumped up out their seats.
HAHA, hurray!
we finally won CG madness!
well, it was claire's novel idea, tying super high ponytails, wearing our specs, carrying our heavy testbooks and posing retardedly, HAHA.
but taking those photos were really funn, we were chao high that day! HAHAHA.
i love CA1! and CA, and Central! :D

and i finally have some time to rest and revive my dying blog!
math test is over -Thank God!- and it wasn't as challenging as i thought, but it wasn't easy either (for me).
then again, there's chemistry test tomorrow and a pile of chem hw to be done by tomorrow..
AIYA, let me rest and sleep a bit can or not, hahaha.
mrs lim is another one who gives hw like breathing.
she went: "You have to do hw! and i will give you A LOT of hw!!"
i think she's a super paranoid and -_- teacher.
and we all think she may be Lim HA's wife, HAHAHAHA.

i am very happy cause i'm back on track doing QT, and i have a breakthrough!
on sunday, i thought of starting small and reading one chapter of the bible,
but not only did i read one, but three! :D

and i can remember yesterday's memory verse (actually it's really short..)
AND NO, it's not Jesus wept.
it's "The weakness of God is stronger than man's strength" 1 Corinthians 1:25b
AMEN, i'm looking forward to QT later. :)

i had wanted to share a sermon during the EXcube period over here, but i didn't have internet access in the start of February..
the sermon was like WAH, it seems to turn on lightbulbs in my brain.
i realised the greatness of our Daddy's love and i can't stop the tears from pouring out.
and i want to share it with you!
but not yet, wait till i have the time to type it properly. :)

& i look forward to watch Hana Kimi at 7pm, AHAHAHA. :P
and i don't care, Xiuyi's total kawaii-ness!
i'm going to start watching It started with a kiss on YouTube in March Holidays.
Ah Jin is chao funny, i tell you!
HAHA, i love YouTube.
and i'm still stuck in Hana Yori episode 9.. :(

anyway, i am very sorry for having to drag cg to a later time!
i appreciate it very much and just thanks so much! :)

and i'm very sorry, Inggrid, Hosanna and whoever else coming on thursday's outing, that i may have to leave earlier than intended..but i'll be able to catch the movie!
whichever we're watching!
thank you so much for always being patient and understanding that i can't go out with you all on saturdays, i appreciate it a lot. :)

seriously, i'm actually very blessed!
okay, i'm going to catch some afternoon nap, hahaah.

OH! Remember to bring money this saturday!
WE ARE HAVING CENTRAL STEAMBOAT GATHERING!! :D

2007-02-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU JESUS & CA!! :) :)
for bringing me so much love, joy and acceptance!
things weren't looking good for me yesterday and this morning.
i was getting really pressurised about how people perceive me to be and i felt that everyone is against me, even my mother seems to stop trusting me, and no matter how much i tried to help my mum, i seem to make matters worse.
i was so stressed.
i nearly forgot about my God who is faithful.
i nearly forgot my sanctuary.
i nearly forgot about my family of God's people.
i felt like crumbling to a thousand million pieces and vanishing.
then i remembered that God's faithfulness never fails, that He's the voice of hope.
and i manage to continue to trust in Him and put my hope in Him.
and WOW, just that little bit of trust brought me so much blessings.

my mum told me just before she left for the airport that she trusts that i'm in the right company. :)

then as i joined CA (well, not the whole CA lah) before service just now, and talking to winnie, i felt their acceptance and warmth.
and as i step into service, I CAN FEEL GOD's PRESENCE!!
and that's a big deal cause, i haven't felt his prescense so strongly for a longgggg longgg time.
and as we go into praise and worship, i felt the familiar Joy surging in my heart and we praised and later, worshipped God.

"Never wanna be, never wanna be
livin' living less than all You want for me
Giving all my life to my God and i'll worship You" :)

ahhh, service was just great.
the sermon was really applicable to me as well.
Thank You, Jesus!
Thank You, Pastor Shirley for teaching the sermon!

let me share some stuff from sermon.
"God works best in the atmosphere of Faith," how true.
i can only smile, haha!

more truths, more truths:
"Look outwards, you'll be stressed,
Look inwards, you'll be depressed,
Look upwards (to God), you'll be at rest."
it's exactly the sequence of events which happend to me in the last 36 hours(+-).

AND, we're serving the God of the impossible, who specializes in mission impossible cases!
He will not, disappoint His people.
so trust in Him and put your hope in Him!
Faith, Trust and Obedience is key!
ordinary steps of obedience results in extraordinary miracles. :)

AND the love and joy is still pouring in!!
CA had a birthday surprise celebration for me (belated).
ohman, and as if last week wasn't enough as AB surprised me as well.

shucks, i love these people. HAHA.
then there was a round of affimations and thank you all so much for your affirmmations!
i was so encouraged, and i didn't know that i was so loved.
i will continue to ganbate, for God, for you all, and for my ambition. :)
Thank You for loving me, CA!!
and haha, i really didn't know you read my blog, Calean!
OH and of course, thank you, Central AB for the surprise last week!

also, Thank You my friends in 4/3!!
i appreciated your plans to surprise me! :)

one more thing, like Puiwah, i fell in love with Hana Kimi.
AHH, and xiuyi is sooo cute and funny, both in the drama and the manga. :P
HAHA.
i am very tempted to collect all the Hana Kimi manga.
and to get hold of the drama, either heheh, download, or dvd.
OH and i find it very funny that 3 out of the 4, are Hana Kimi's tou hao fan-se. HAHAH.
Mell sent me some Fahrenheit's songs. it's not bad actually. :)

and i'm stuck in Hana Yori Dango 1, episode 9.
cause somehow, i don't have it. :(
borrowing thumbdrive, then can ask inggrid to transfer to me. :)
Rui is so cute please, HAHA.

okay, i'll stop here, need to study geog for monday's test.
Population Density & Settlement........
tell you a secret, this post is typed on sunday morning, haha.

2007-02-12T20:24:00.000+08:00

NO ONE LOVED ME. :(

cause no one came for EX3.
NANDESKA? NANDEEEEE???
but it's okay, i will continue to ask people to come.
cause i'm not so selfish as to keep God's love to myself.
you may be my next target to ask. AHAHAHA.

and i'm sorry, the past two weeks i was dead in cyberspace.
but now, i'm revived.
AHAHAHA.
i have connection again! :D
and so, my blog will be revived as well.
i promise i'll update more regularly. :)
not that anyone read it..

okay, i have to go study bio.
Reproduction in Plants, ahahha, i bet you're disappointed.
i know you want to know about Reproduction in Man. :P

if you take bio, you'd have a different perspective of flowers..
cause they are the..sexual reproductive organs for plants.
and when you smell the flower, you're smelling the sex glands of plants.
HAHA.
and beware of inhaling pollen grains.
they are the plant's version of sperms.
HAHAHA.

OH OH, and when you eat fruits, you're eating the ovaries or pericarp which is the ovary walls.
i think i'm overstressed..look at the way i type! :/

my heart itches as i read and (going to) watch HANA KIMI :D :D
i love HANA KIMI & HANA YORI DANGO!

sadly, i have no time to watch finish Hana Yori.
but it's okay, cause CNY coming.
i'm going to watch finish Hana Yori. :D
okay, back to bio..
this week is crazy, 5 tests!

2007-01-26T21:36:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU AND IF YOU LOVE ME TOO, COME FOR
EX3 WILL YOU?
and i mean you, reading this. :)
yes, i love you cause i love people.
people matter to God and matter to me as well.

if you'd like to come, please text me or call me or add me on msn, email me, whatever.
milliefhee@hotmail.com
HAHA.

anyway, we the sec four yhopes of smss are on a special mission. ;)

2007-01-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

ohno, my blog is getting dead. :(
haha, sorry lah.
i don't have time to update!
& when i do, i'm stuck somewhere.
i'm so tired now, i'm going to sleep soon.
HAHA.

Oh, i've some random songs to recommend,
Why, Natalie Nordeman
Beautiful One, Jeremy Camp

I Believe In You, Il Divo
Sad Tango, Rain
Props In My Life, Rain
Move On, Rain

TESSA, this picture is for you! :)
you know what?
you need icecream & chocolate therapy now.
you've to cheer up okay?
God will definitely place your life back on track.
but only if you believe. :)

anyway, i'd like to post some of the lyrics of some of my favourite songs. :)
these songs helped me A LOT.
along with Anyway which i'm not posting yet. :P

Worship You Alone

"Your faithfulness never fails
Your faithfulness everyday
You’re the same
Unfailing love sets me free
Unfailing love, You lead me with Your hands

And all I know, You're with Your arms around me
Your face is all that I see
Your love and grace pick me up and hold me
You alone are holy

For You alone are great in power
You alone are my strong tower
And I will lift my heart and soul to worship You alone
For You alone are my desire
You have set my heart on fire
And I will lift my heart and soul to worship You alone
Worship You alone

And I will follow after You
For You're my desire
Oh Jesus, my heart belongs to You :)"

as i struggle to balance out everything in my everyday life.
and other troubles which i seem to face,
as i fell in the pathway of life,
You ran to me and caught me in Your arms,
You wiped the tears from my eyes and i'll hold on and be faithful.
as You're a faithful God and Your faithfulness never fails. :)

"He ran to me
He caught me in His arm
Held my head to His chest
and said 'my son's(& daughter!!) come home again!'
Lifted my face,
wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice,
He said 'son (& daughter!!), do you know i still love you?'
When God Ran"
-When God Ran :)

and are you struggling in Your path of life as well?
if you're, why don't you give Jesus a chance to lift up Your burdens and wipe the tears from Your eyes? :)

and i thank God, that i'm in Hope, surrounded by people like winnie and the other three in saint marg's and all in CA. :D
thank you, all of you.

and i also thank God for my sunday/recess buddy, inggrid. :)
HAHA, sunday must study okayyyy.

2007-01-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

hello! :)
i have been listening to a few really really nice & meaningful songs,
and i want to share them with you :D
okay lah, so not really share the song, but just the title.
but i'll post the lyrics up soon. :)

my new favourite songs are:
ANYWAY, by i donno who but it's from the album Shout Your Glory. :D
(i tell you, i really loooooovvvveeeeeee this song, it melts my heart, HAHA.)
Always, Hillsong United.
Son Of God, Hillsong.
Worship You Alone, Planetshakers.
When God Ran, Phillip, Craig & Dean.

trust me, check these songs out.
they're really great songs for personal worship during QT. :)

anyway, in the past two days,
i've been really happy.
thanks sandy, for pointing that out to me. :)
and thank You, God, for giving me the courage to change things in my friendship with hosanna.
now, we're friends again!!
and i'm very happy. :)

and apparently she gave me a new nickname.
MELLO JELLO MEELLA, hahah.
which reminds me, i haven't made jell-o for a long time.
i shall make some jell-o soon. :D

i realise that this year, i get stressed/discouraged really easily.
like even when doing hw and i can't do a question, or reading tb and i don't understand.
but sometimes it goes to the extent that i feel that i cannot make it for Os.
shucks. :(
i need to have more faith that if i put in 100%, God will do his part.

and i don't have time to finish all my hw this weekend!
mrs cheong gives hw like breathing, please.
4 wenzhang/zuowens to do in one weekend, 1 test to study for with han zi. :(
and there's math, which is alright, only 2 questions.
I LOVE MRS LOW!! :D
then there's geog, a mountainload of them.
and chem.

saturday's packed and i promised lunch+shopping on sunday.
i need to shop for file+planner anyway.
evening there's tennis.
help. help. help.

i can't stand it, i am so hopeless in dancing. :(
(random) i just remembered dance just now.
and i really wonder,
how come some people are so good in both dancing and studies.
others good in dancing, singing even acting.
they're so talented.
and why is it that i'm not good in anything?

haha, i struggle with this.
BUT, i know that i'm covered in the fingerprints of God;
i'm fearfully and wonderfully made. :)
i know that for sure, he gave me some talent of some sort.
just that i donno it yet.

SERVICE TOMORROW! :D
and Central Gathering!

2007-01-09T19:57:00.000+08:00

okay, one day late, but hack,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, lil' brother! :D
yesterday's is my little brother's eighth birthday!
ahaha, still remember when he was just born,
i used to be really jealous of him as he gets all the attention.
and now, when i get something from my mum, or some attention,
he gets jealous, HAHA.

hey! you got mum on your side everyday please.
but i suppose that's just how 7-8 year olds behave.
when he was born, i was 8. hahaha.
ohman, i'm like twice as old as him after my birthday. :
he's really dependent and irritating, HAHA.
but i love him anyway, he's my brother after all. :)

anyway, i really hope that my brother will get to know Jesus soon. :)
it's good that he studies in an international schools which teaches biblical values and tells bible stories.
but i hope that he'll learn to understand the meaning behind it all soon. :)

and i can't stand it!
why is it that my parents have to give me such a weird name like mila,
but give him a proper english-y name like raymond? :HAHA, but i really hate my name.

anyway, steamboat for cg was really funn yesterday! :)
the food was super nice.
can we go steamboating again? :D

but i was super tired just now, and i fell asleep in emath.
(mrs low wasn't teaching, we were supposed to do work)
then she walked over and said loudly: "hey, what happened to you?! tired ah?"
i was so shocked i nearly jumped up, HAHA.
but she was so nice about it, and she went: "but don't forget to do your hw ah!"
i think she's super cute and super nice. :)

and i think, my sec 4 math will be quite alright with her as my teacher.
just that i'll need to put a lot of work on my sec 3 math.

2007-01-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

EDITED-
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! :)

in 2007, i'll be expecting more from God.
more of Him, more to overcome, and more to learn.
it's the big Os, and i'm going to work really hard this year.
i 'm going to work hard to get into a good JC,
to get into science stream, and be a doctor.
then i can help the people in Africa. :)

and that's not all okay.
i want to be an evangelistic doctor. :)
i want to spread the gospel and the love of God.
to as much people as possible.
and especially to the hopeless living in poverty,
i want to let them know, that there is hope.
that God will save them and provide for them. :)
i think i'm rather ambitious. :P

"and You opened my eyes to Your wonders
and You captured my heart with this love
cause nothing on earth is as beautiful as You"

that can probably summarise year 2006 for me.
2006 was probably, not a very good year.
there was a lot of problems, especially in the aspect of friendships.
but as for me, it has been the best year of my life.
why?
simply cause, Jesus entered my life.
God entered my life.

in 2006, God opened my eyes to Him, to His wonders and His people.
He opened my eyes to His love and all that He has done.
and He captured my heart with His love and His people's love.
now, i've learned to love Him as well.
and i genuinely do. :)

as i've said before, i've grown to really love Him!
i've grown to depend on Him when problems arises and trust in Him that He'll make a way out of things.
i've grown to love saturdays as it's the day service is held.
it's the day i get to BASK IN HIS PRESENCE. :)
and praise Him and worship Him and learn His Word.
ohman, i can only say, i love God, i love God, i love God.
and i don't think i can go back, to the life without God and without yhope.

another thing which i really thank God for, other than Himself, is yhope. :)
especially Central, Central A!
this really really mad and passionate group of people.
mad and passionate for God.
ohman, i love yhope, especially central.
i don't know how to say, i just love to be in this together with all of you.
i love this family of God, i love God's people.
you all brought me so much love, laughter, understanding, acceptance and fun. :)

thank you, God for placing me in this family.
in Central and in Central A. :)

and not forgetting my classmates! :D
i can't forget you people, you all are too sweet!
i love 3e3/4e3!
this whole bunch of people are seriously fun-loving.
so fun-loving that most of the time, we forget about our work. :P
but this year, let's all work hard together for Os okay?
then we'll show all the teachers, that we're not hopeless!
especially miss choo, who totally gave up on us.
seriously, she so unsupportive and un-encouraging..

anyway, i really thank God for all of you people, people like:
amanda: lunch outs, tennis and heartfelt talks? :D
rachel: DARLINGGG!
inggrid: hey, emerald!
valerie: you cutie!
haley: we will work hard together yea?
hweepeng: girrafes! HAHA, come for service again!
tessa: icecream? ;D
nicole: nicole, give me a hug!
farmer mitch: my apple!! and you are so biblical okay!
& hosanna- though we don't talk now, but i still really thank God for you! hope we can talk soon, and be friends!

2006 has been a good year. :)
how can it not be?
i received God into my life!
and i am looking forward, to becoming a shepherd!
I WANT TO BE A SHEPHERD!
hahaha. :P

and today(060107), i had my first sound 'duty'. :D
ohman, all that buttons are so confusing!
but my leader, amelia was very patient and understanding, haha.
it was cool, adjusting all that buttons.
just that, i miss p&w and holycomm :
anyway, 3 days in sec four.
and i'm dying already.
there's so many work to do!
like a mountain everyday, HAHA.
and the teachers are super strict and pressurising.
which is in a way, good, cause i kinda work well with pressure. :)
I WILL CHIONG LIKE MAD THIS YEAR!!

and these are my teachers-
form, history & ss: leesiongboon (he's so military! HAHA)
emath: cecilia low
bio: charles low
chem: TEMPORARILY v.pillai
eng: don't know yet
chi: mrs.cheong
accounts: vincent koh
pure geog: chooyeowpeng (i'm going to fail with her as my teacher..)

i need serious help for maths.
and i think, i'm going to ask mrs low for help on monday.
i need to do something about maths, if i want to get a good grade.
sigh, i hate math!

but i will conquer it. :)

2006-12-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

hello! :)
i want to apologise to all of you people.
i haven't write you all your Christmas cards!!
i'm sorry, but i didn't have time before Christmas as i was preparing my Christmas muffins.
and now, i'm too lazy to write already. :P
but also, i don't have time as i need to complete my hw.
I'M SORRY!!
i promise to start earlier next year!
and i may give you all my Chrismas cards in chinese new year.
HAHA, if you all don't mind. :P

and i'd also like to apologise, i have been ignoring my tagboard!
SORRY!!
i'm going to start replying tags.
but the problem now is that, i can't remember, who to start from. HAHA.
okay, i shall start from when i come back from camp. :)

abigail: hello abigail! and i missed talking to you too!! :)

sinyee: HAHA, hello sinyee! :)

JIEYING!: JIEYING, sleeping partner! (sounds wrong) HAHA! i'm not in indian dance ogay? haha, but indian dance seems funn. let's learn together! and let's go drumming together along with my twin! :D

Euphoria: WOW, euphie! you really seem happy! and that's good! :) i'll relink you very soon, and i miss youuuuu! see you when school reopens! :D

AMANDA: HAHA, it's okay amanda! but if you had come, i'm sure you'd be amused by the giraffes! it's WHOAAAAA! HAHA. and i'll still give you the invites! it's really pretty! :D
and this song's called MIGHTY TO SAVE! :) my all-time favourite song!

daniel: YEAH! and i haven't forget your challange! :)

inggrid: i've got an N73! :D i love the camera! and we can take photo on the first day of school! :) and really must take alone??

tracee: thank you, miaa! :) and i'm sure that we can hit our goal! on Christmas central doubled! :D

TESSA: TESSA!! i miss you too! see you on the first day of school! :D and i'm going to get in trouble for my hair..i didn't cut it, HAHA. :P

SANDY: haha, it's horrible to be sick!! but we're all okay now! :)

SHIYOU: i missed you right after you left, before even you left!! HAHA. and i'm really going to miss you a lot when you leave for melbourne. :( :(

mel: mellissa!! :D and God sees your heart too! next year we've to work very very hard together for st.marg's to grow, and for our Os, amen? and i'll relink you soon! :)

AND THE REPEATS. :) as well as non-repeats, HAHA.

AMANDA: HAHA, yeahh! i went for camp and it's great funn!! sure! we can go trick/treating too, in the halloween to DE-stress from all that studying for Os, HAHA. and TENNIS!! i'm going to start tennis in januaryyyy. :D :D and thank you in advance for your card, amanda! :)
LUNCH AT IKEAAAAAA!

Abigail: HAHA, i'm glad you liked it! :) and thank you for your cookies! they're really yummy! :D

inggrid: and MERRY CHRISTMAS to you too! :) i miss you and when are you coming back from london? :D

tracee: HAHA, no lahhh! i sincerely mean my greetings okayy. :)

CHP: HWEEPENG! :D hahaha, you're welcome! and sureee! where you want to go shopping? :D and come to my church service again soon okay? HAHA.

TESSA: and happy belated boxing day to you tessa! lunch at IKEAAA! :D

Clara: HELLO, pretty claraaaa! :D and i replied your tagg on your blog but you never reply..but it's okay. HAHA.

daniel: HAHA, it's on the "a yhope Christmas" leaflet given out on the 16th! :D candy canes are really meaningful aren't they? and you haven't send me calendar!! HAHA.

SANDY: it's on the "a yhope Christmas" leaflet! HAHA. and i can wait..! hahaha, ohman, i hate math. but thanks for being so willing to help me, sandy!! :) i really appreciate it and i really need LOADS of help!

and i'm done. :)
and i'm excited service tomorrow, or shall i say today afternoon?
HAHA. :D
today afternoon will be a time to meet God and bask in His presence!
and as for now, it's time to write to God. :)

Jesus, beautiful saviour..

2006-12-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

In the late 1800's, a candy maker in Indiana wanted to express the meaning of Christmas through a symbol made of candy.
He came up with the idea of bending one of his white candy sticks into the shape of a Candy Cane.
He incorporated several symbols of Christ's love and sacrifice through the Candy Cane.

First, he used a plain white peppermint stick.
The color white syboluzes the purity and sinless nature of Jesus.

Next, he added three small stripes to symbolize the pain inflicted upon Jesus before His death on the cross.
There are three of them to represent the Holy Trinity.
He added a bold stripe to represent the blood Jesus shed for mankind.

When looked at with the crook on top, it looks like a shepherd's staff because Jesus is the shepherd of man.
If you turn it upside down, it becomes the letter J symbolizing the first letter in Jesus's name.

The candy maker made this candy canes for Christmas, so everyone would remember what Christmas is all about. :)

the meaning behind candy canes.. :)

2006-12-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :D :D
hello!
this is my first Christmas with yhope, and i'm loving it!
HAHA(:
for once, i wasn't at home alone doing nothing,
but celebrating the birth of Jesus with people of the same beliefs and vision!
and also, with the understanding of the true meaning of Christmas. :)

CHRISTMAS IS ALL ABOUT CHRIST.
not presents.
not santa claus.
not rudolf the red-nosed reindeer or frosty the snowman.
hahaha. ;)

of course, Christmas is the season of giving.
but the tradition of giving gifts came from when the the three wisemen gave Jesus gifts of gold, incense and of myrrh.
so you see, all the traditions of Christmas come from Christ alone.
Christmas is all about Christ. :)
do you know the Christ of Christmas?

okay anyway, Christmas service in kallang theatre was AWESOME! :D
i was very impressed by the small musical they put up on Genesis 1 & 2, the story of creation.
and hweepeng and i were very amused at the girraffes, HAHA.
the girraffe was superrrrrrr tallllllll.
i loved the whole production and it's clear that they had put up a great deal of effort in it. :)

and you know, from the creation story, i learnt even more about the love of God.
it reveals us the heart of God when He asks Adam & Eve: "Where are you?" when they have disobeyed Him. what hurts God most is the relationship He had with Adam & Eve broken, and not Adam & Eve disobeying him.
He loves us that much & even more.
ohman, how deep is the love of God for us sinners? :')

HWEEPENG!
i was very very happy when i realised that you're a believer already!
i understand that you face persecution at home.
but you've to stand strong in your faith, okay?
i'll keep you in prayers! :)
and it'll be good to join a church!
you can always join yhope, we welcome you anytime anywhere, HAHA!
and a bonus, our services in on saturdays, so you can just say going out for gathering. :P

after service, we went for dinner and then after that was Central AB bonding session!
we played WHACKO for a super long time, and it was super funn and super funny! :D
Central AB, can we play whacko again?
HAHAHA.
and why never play in central chalet? :
CENTRAL CHALET was really really funn! :D
as i said, for once my Christmas wasn't wasted away doing nothing at home.
but spent with great funn along with people of the same beliefs and visions.

and we got so-called lost when going to the chalet, it was super ulu please, hahaha.
so, we called for help, and jiehui arrived with his LORRY.
and sandy, june, grace, quankai and i had to climb in and squat at the back like some pathetic chickens to drive to the chalet! HAHAHAHA.

it was funn making the sandwich, and don't worry.
i assure you, centralites, we placed hygiene in high priority while making them. :)
and CE's cheese prawns were super yummy please?
HAHA.

had the presentation thing and CD's one was super funny.
but CE's one was really good too, they deserved to win!
went nightwalk-caroling and then played mafia the whole night till our stomachs growling.
we got so desperate for food, that joshua, esther, joel, quankai and me ordered McDelivery.
that was around 5am.
and guess what?
we only got the food at 7 plus.. HAHAHA.
apparently, the chalet was so ulu that even the mcdelivery guy had to take a taxi.

then went to sleep at around 8 plus till around 1 plus when we leave.
it was rather hard to sleep.. :P
hahaha, went for lunch with CE then after that sandy and i met mell at PS to watch movie.
i was reluctant to go home!!
hahaha, we watched Charlotte's Web and it's very very nice! :)
very very touching, all of us cried lah, haha.
i wouldn't mind watching it again!
the beginning was a bit draggy though, but i really love the movie! :)

then went home and here i am, blogging this down.
i'm very lonely here at home and I MISS CENTRAL CHALET; I MISS CENTRAL!! :(

2006-12-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

camp was awesomely, wonderfully, tangibly a blast!! :)
especially when i have been rather disconnected with the body of Christ the week before,
as i was overseas.

anyway, i shall share about my trip home before sharing about camp. :D
it was a not bad trip, and my hometown really have some major changes!
HAHHA, there's lots of new shopping centres, i got quite a shock really.
still remember, when i was young only have one shopping centre. HAHAHA.
so lousy, i know.

and and and, we went up to the mountain, didn't get to fish(haha) as we wanted to though.
it was truly beautiful! :)
i'm going to go back there the next time i go home.
and fish! HAHAHAHA.
i didn't get my phone yet, when we went there.
so i wasn't able to capture the picturesque scenes. :
anyway, i met my little baby cousin for the first time!
he's so cute, so tiny!
hahaha, and his older sister has grewn quite a lot too!
i remember how i used to play house with her, HAHAHA.
ohman, i missed her!
and my brother has grown a lot too, and he influenced me to like the movie POSEIDON!
HAHAHA.
my brother loves ships and planes and any movie about them.

oh and i'm very happy that his school teaches Christian values and tell them bible stories! :)
i hope that he'll learn the real meaning of all these stories soon.
and i hope he'll come to know Christ personally soon.
and my mum too, of course. :)

i realised my mum had become more compassionate, and i'm very proud of her!
that day when we visited my aunt, she took my cousin along,
and we went to the supermarket.
my mum bought milk, baby biscuits and all for my baby cousin as my aunt is not very well-to-do.
and i find out that she have been doing that for quite some time! :)

actually i think my mum has a lot of burdens on her,
i pray that she'll accept Christ soon and very soon.

anyway, CAMP! :D

DAY ONE!
wah, super hard to wake up can, HAHAHA.
but i'm so glad that i went early and helped(actually i didn't even help much) in the admin.
and i was so glad to see Central A and all other church people! :)

i was in Captain's Ball for YHOPE OLYMPICS, and i was totally lousy at it.
HAHAHA.
i made some new friends like joceyln and daixuan. :)
jocelyn had a hard time convincing me that i wasn't lousy, HAHA.
but i still think i'm lousy..hahah.

then it started raining so we had to stop. :and the running was cancelled as well..
and it's such a pity cause i heard that Central had lost the olympics just by one point!
i tell you, if we had the running event, we sure win!
especially when my new unit member, (who loves to disturb people) joshua, was saying that he will surely win, HAHAHA.

Central A and B have merged and together, we're Central AB! :)

Central AB(:

anyway the dance item for opening ceremony was very cool!
and we get to learn it during mass dance in the mornings and i can't do the steps for nuts.
HAHAHA.

brother David Chen is seriously cool!
all his inspiring and thrilling(haha) stories..
and He's also very funny!
thanks to his teachings, i'm really convicted to go all out to share the gospel and win all these lost souls for God! :)

i was so happy to be able praise and worship God as i have missed services for 2 weeks, being overseas.
i was so overjoyed to be able to be in God's presence!
however, i only felt God presence in the beginning and i didn't receive anything more than that.
i was so afraid that i wouldn't meet God at all!
but then, i know God is a faithful God and that He'll never leave me. :)
and yes, i did meet God on day two!

DAY TWO!
i remember the breakfast wasn't really yummy, HAHAHA.
after breakfast we had praise and teachings. :)
and then we had lunch, and a veryyyyy longgggg break before we have-
MIS-MATCH! :D

Central A all dressed up for mismatched! :)
and yes, we were walking on an indoor track, cool right?

Central A(:

Central AB all mis-matched(;

after mis-match we had another teaching!
and brother david told us his story of church planting,
WAH, super cool can! :D

and after that, we had CONCERT which lasts until 3am! HAHAHA.
but it was a truly divine time, this time i really met God!
i didn't meet God as i wanted to, but i still did!
i was very very JOYFUL that night! :)
He spoke to me, through all the teachings that brother david taught,
and by this song-

i gave my all to You
send me and i will go for You
to the ends of the earth
i'll follow after You
i want the world to know
Your love endures forever

tell me and i'll obey
this is far greater than sacrifice
trust in You and not myself
will always lead to blessing
Lord, have Your way in me
not my will but Yours be done

here i stand within Your presence longing for Your touch
a thousand days cannot compare to one day in Your courts
hold me now and never ever let me go
my Jesus, my precious saviour
i'm forever Yours

and i'll will worship You forever
i will worship You

it's a beautiful song, isn't it?
and i'm positive that it was God telling me to trust in Him and not myself whenever problems surfaces. :)
and this song, allowed me to recommit myself to God!
and i really really felt His presence and i worshipped Him like i haven't done in weeks! :)

i responded when they asked who would like to be a shepherd. :D
you know, i really want to become a shepherd, and serve God even more!
basically,
God, send me and i will go for You, tell me and i'll obey.

and the through brother david's teachings,
God convicted me to really go all out,
to win the lost souls over to the Kingdom.
to have courage to evangelise & share the Gospel to those who needs to hear them.
to give 100% of my effort. :)

this camp has really ignited a passion in my heart for people. :)
God's first test for me, to accept daniel's challenge.
and i did.
and i did, we went out to evangelise on thursday and friday.
and there was fear, but not much. :)
cause God's perfect love drives out all fear in me.

and i didn't sleep this whole night! :D
hahhaha, it was funn!

DAY THREE!
ohman, i didn't want this day to come! :(
this camp is truly very short, i didn't want to go home, hahaha.
basically, this is the day we praised God, thanked God for this camp
& take photos before we go home. :)

you know what? :D
i shared the gospel to one of my contact today!
well, she wasn't very responsive.
but i started on my challenge!
and later on, i asked her if she believed in Jesus.
she said, in a way, she believes He exists. :)

& although the RG contacts weren't able to come in the last minute yesterday,
somehow i believe that we're going to win RGS very soon!
besides, they're willing to come next week if they can. :)

tomorrow is another day to evax. :)